Alother long time LOL!
So its been super busy since summer with my daycare and my little girl (Dog). I have 3 girls and they are all around the age of 1 yr, well in the older part of one year. Nataleigh-Shay just turnned 1 , I just cant believe I have had her almost a year, it will be Feb 9th that I got her .
I love her and she has been the best dog, She trains fast when she wants to, I havent been able to stop her from barking when I say thats enough she hasnt learnt yet though I am praying hard that she will learn to stop barking when I say enough, She also has yet to learn to stop chewing on hands and licking, She doesnt hurt but its gross.
Lol Another thing all 3 of the girls are having probloms with is sharing, one tells us everything is hers, the other one just pushes the other two and Nataleigh-Shay doesnt like anyone playing with her toys.
We just finished Christmas And in a way I hope it was still christmas but im happy its over, I did how ever love the 2 weeks off I got , it was nice to actually lay on the couch and do nothing all day, I watched about 5 movies or so a day & didnt move from the couch other then to get food.
Now I am paying for not working out lol, But Its been a week of me back in to exercising and I am already getting my figure back lol, Its all that snacking my family loves to do , And when my mom is home all day she makes good lunches which I am not used to eating alot for lunch, Usually I snack on my lunch, Plus having Cheese and Crackers everynight and Cookies, Pies and all that is just too much! lol.
2008 we had 3 passings which were sad, Chase was the first to go , He went at the end of summer, he was 6 years old, Chip I dont know when he went I just kept feeding him and the food was building up so it was shortly after Chase.
Snowball was the saddest he went 2 weeks before Christmas, He was 10 and died of a bladder infection, He had it at the begining of summer ,It only lasted about 2 weeks and it was gone with him taking meds. Then 2 weeks before Christmas he was looking and acting great until one afternoon the girls were sleeping and Snowball started to walk around screaming, we started him on his meds but a day later he was so far that we couldnt take him to the vet, He wouldnt have made it through the opperation. He died the next day when we got home from a movie he was laying there.
Its sad! He was a beautiful cat. its weird to only have one pet, It hasnt been since I was 9 to only have one pet. Its absulutly weird to not wake up to Chip on his wheel , Chase screaming for Breakfast or for them both to yell at me for supper at night. I still find myself going to the freezer to get vegetables & thaw them out.
I still see Snowball all over though its not him its just somthing I saw out of the cornner of my eye, I find it will be a white blanket or a bag of stuffing.
So Now we are in search for a cat wity long hair and for him to be somewhat beautiful, Ive already Named him, He will be Owen , I wish to have two just so I can name the other one George but I think it will just have to be Owen George.
I also would love to get a big dog, I have been wanting to Jog for along time. Me and Kyle used to jog way back when but Kyle's Ankle is stuff being stupid and the doctors cant find anything wrong even though it swells up huge!, I dont like Jogging alone because I like to listen to my music and I cant jogging alone, I guess I am paranoide but I have every right to be. So I would like a big dog so I can have him beside me while I jog. His name would be Tucker somethin Hunter. But I wont be getting a big dog in the City, Says my Family.
Kyle doesnt care for dogs, He is a cat person. Though I love Cats I would rather have dogs then cats. We were fortunate with Snowball and the lack of cat in him ,Hopfully we will get one like Snowball though nothing will replace him we can only pray for something as good and he was.
If I had my choice I would have many dogs all sizes and a few cats, I love a cat for being graceful and cuddling. Nataleigh-Shay likes to sleep on you but is far from being Graceful!!!!
I went in a few Craft sales and one Trade show, I did horrible at the Craft sale and awesome at the Trade show. So This year I want trade shows and No Craft sales.
I have a bunch of new items, and coming up with more. Ive been growing with child clothes as Mittens and slippers. I make things that serve a purpose and that are also easy to get on a wiggley Baby/Toddler. It has been super awesome having 2 little girls around that I can try all my new Ideas on and having a puppy that I can finally persue my dog line, I have sold a few items from m Dog line and Nataleigh-Shay also wears some. I was so busy at Christmas I didnt get to finished what I wanter for her but I am making her sun dresses because she only had two dresses last year and grew so fast I didnt even get a picture of the green one for st.Patricks day, I did manage to get a picture of her first Dress and that was also the first outfit made by me she had ever had, She was also only 6 weeks old and thats when I got her.
Im hoping that one day I will get another girl puppy wear her clothing and have her own.

Somethihg suprising happened to me the other day. But im not going to say because I dont think it will happen. Its just another plan something and let me down. So I am planning on the worst and I dont think it will happen, This way I will not be let down by him again. If you know me well you know who I am talking about.
Well I hope I will post again on here soon but with life as busy as it is it might not be for awhile.

Long time , Update on life

Hey Again so its been almost a year since I last wrote in here.
Alot has changed this last year. I am single and have been since last october, I quite my job at Shelleys, so Im no longer working in a daycare I am running my own. I had my summer daycare this year it was alot smaller then the year before, I just had two girls so It was REALLY FUN! After Christmas one of the girls had asked me if she could spend the summer with me at my house, It got me thinking about the summer and that I usaully have nothing planned since everyone else is working why not me. So I said well you ask your mom and well her mom was hoping I would be open to taking one for the summer, So I told another girls mom about it and I had two girls for the summer. It was actually pretty great cause one had a "Click" Problom and she has never let the other in to her "Click", her being one of the first daycare children Shelley had so she acts like its her turf per say, Anyways she always faught with the other. So This summer they had nothing better to do then to play with eachother.
They are great friends now and I am SOO Happy for that.

I had Interveiws all summer . In my first week I had 4 interveiws :| It was overwelming for me cause I was just getting the girls, My Dog had just had her opperation and then interveiws and making sure everything was in order. My first day I had 1, then Wednesday 1 & Thursday I had 2. My 4:30 was a YES I was so thankful, & It was a little girl!
Then I had a bunch more interveiws ,1 family even drove up to my house and then backed away and drove away! I was like what the heck people. It was okay anyways cause they had just had a baby and wanted a spot for May 2009. Well I was praying hard there wasnt going to be any spots open cause I wanted to be full with only 2 kids.
My last week of summer daycare which was the first week of August on thursday at 4:30 I had my last interveiw and it was another YES again a little girl. On my ad I had changed the age range when I got my first Daycare child, So I was looking for a little one around the same age and I got one! They are only 3 months apart :D

I throw the girls a brithday party. I thought last year that the girls Brithday was only 2 weeks apart but I was wrong It was actually a month and 2 weeks anyways I throw the party as a end of the summer party and also part of a birthday party.
the oldest had just turnned 4, four days before we had the Princess party. It was Awesome I shopped for months before the party trying to get the stuff cheaper as it went on sale, I also wanted all this stuff for Nataleigh-Shays 1st birthday (Anew Adition to my family) So It worked Both ways. It was beautiful! I made a priness Castle for the gate, It went accross the opening so we could walk under, It happend to be a very windy day and not everything went right It was 36 out side with a very hot wind. All my balloons where flying and rolling accross the yard. I bought tons of sticks & pink, white & Purple balloons , I lined them up from the castle to the Princess table with streamers at the bottom of the sticks that lined the grass beside the balloon sticks.
I made a big hot pink pig pinata it had a tiara, Purple tutu & Glitter everywhere!
I made it out of tissue paper to break easy, well the girls for some reason had a hard time actually hitting the pig, They had both had 1 good hit each at the pig and they had hit it pretty hard but not hard enough. So they said it was my turn so I just took one good hit to the pink and the head fell off lol.
It was Pretty (I will post a picture)

The girls were running around the yard with streamers and Nataleigh-Shay was chasing them trying to grab the streamers form them, well they didnt like that so I tied one around Nataliegh-Shay's body , well after that all 3 girls where running around the backyard with their streamers, LOL.

Also through the summer the girls would be playing dolls and Nataleigh-Shay would come up beside them with her ty pink bear and play too, It was the cutest thing ever and you know what I never remember to take a picture Im actually getting pretty mad at my self with not taking pictures like I had wanted to.

Anyways I spent the summer with my three girls going to the park but not taking the dog for reasons that she is afraid of Old people/& Youngish people like 30s Except she will chase the really hot guys and she wont bark at them, LOL.

It was a blast of a summer.

On the 12th of August 2008 I went back to work for 2 weeks & only 4 days Tuesdays and Thursdays.
My 3rd day back I planned to have the kids eat without their hands. Well the girls were all for that the two that I had jumped right at that. the boys well the oldest said that would be awesome But the two 5 yr olds & the 3 yr old said NO WAY unless they can eat with a fork & the 2 yr old was looking at other things LOl. well NO WAY thats not the point of eating spagetti without hands!, the youngest always eats with her hands so I wasnt going to stop her since she is only 18 months lol. I Put the plates in front of the girls, 5 yr old, 18th month old & the 2 yr old , I said Ready set GO! And they ate. the 2 yr old didnt at first but when everyone was done the compition he started to pig out , I was happy.
the 5 yr old was 1st then the 4 yr old 2nd 2 yr old 3rd & 3 1/2 yr old never finished. I wasnt stricked with having to finish your plate since I was making them hurry and eat with their face LOl.
After the two first winners where done I gave them more and then everyone else some with Forks!
SO I took tons of pictures and a Movie for their Christmas dvd.

My Last day there was so sad, Shelley had Planned a bbq, & She had the kids make me a Big books with pictures of them even the dogs, Cats & Shelley and Kim were in there. Under each picture there was somthing they said about what they like about me.
They gave me a big stuffed Tiger that they had completely Mangled by the time I left there at 4:00 LOl I asked them what I should name him and I think I heard one of the kids say Carter Im not sure they could have said Tiger LOl but anyways I said His name is Carter but Carter Means all of them.
I almost Cried!. Shelley & Kim also gave me a Bamboo Plant which I thought was cool.
From Shelley I have gotten 2 plants, I have always wanted to fill a house with plants but in this house its hard to keep them alive. If you put them in the back windows where the light is they are fine for a week until my dad opens a window and freezes them! the only reason he opens the windows in winter is to get the gross smell of fried eggs that he just cooked out of the house!
In summer if your plant lasts that long you get little bugs all over your plants and they die! . The front we have a over hang so there is no sun light in the living room.
I cleaned my room and the are both in there now.
the youngest girl I had over the summer Walked in with her grandma not wanting to stay at Shelleys but she had a gift for me so she came in to give it to me. Guess what it is? This is something that doesnt cross our minds enough, How much kids watch us. She hands me flowers that are wrapped up. I open them up and They are my Favorite flowers ever! Hot pink gerbia Daisys! One was darker she called it purple but it was actually the pink I like a deep pink on the hot pink/red side. The color I want my Brides maids to wear at my wedding (When I get a man)
Then her grandma said they where at Tim hortons going to buy a coffee card,& She put up a fuss and said "Kristy doesnt drink Coffee, She Only drinks Water" LOL The cutest thing ever!, Which It was all true. I mean I try to be a good influenc around the kids as I make them drink water all morning and then they have to drink 1 water bottle of water going to or at the park and if they dont finish their water before we go then they dont get juice. I try to stick with low sugar juices, I did have cool aid just because It taste so good! And I of course follow those same rules as I drink water all morning and then 1 water bottle of water at the park. But what they dont see is that I usually drink water until they are done their water then I drink juice so I sometimes have 3 bottles before their 1 and then if that happens when they are playing I drink a bottle of Pepsi I have hidden in the bag :D LOL. But thats my secret :P

Back to the paty hahahaa I gave the girls a bunch of stuff as I said before I shopped for months , I get excited and then buy everything I SEE Plus 1 edmonton trip with a few hundred LOL.
I bought at the disney store Princess Cups, These have a lid with a straw & cap on the straw, At the bottom is a water bubble with a floating Princess. I didnt dare get the girls the same so I bought one Sleeping Beauty & One Snowwhite. When I was putting them in the bags I closed my eyes and I put them in so I didnt choose who they went to. I made Purple Tutu's with Pruple Ribbons & Purple Jeweled Butterflys.
They were pretty, I made Tank tops & Pantys out of this slippery Sparkley Purple Fabric. The girls loved them and The best part to them SHOES at dollerama I ran accross these Pink dress up shoes that were so cute and Made REALLY good, Better then the ones I paid $5.00 for.
You cant forget the Tiaras, at 11:00am I princessed the girls hair, Pinned it all up with hair swirls all over the back of their heads. And a Silver Tiara that pins right in the hair, They looked Beautiful.
I made them a Scrapbook of their summer and I gave it my last day, one of the girls Made Kim look at it 3 times and every boy in that room looked at it once with her and she looked at it by her self every few minutes, I took it away for naptime cause she is a picker and she would pick everything off. so I took it away and the minute naptime was over she asked for it and looked at it a few more times then I left.

The other girls Grandma Took hers home cause she had dicided to stay until 1:00. So I didnt get to see what she thought of it.

Okay now to the biggest news ever! I finally got my puppie! No she is not a tiny little dog that I wanted she was that small when I got her but now she is almost 8 months and is 12 pounds not 5 pounds :( Sadly she is not that small and grew way to fast. I got her in febuaray before valentines so she was my valintine this year.
I even made her a Dress and I will picture that if I can.
Her name is Nataleigh-Shay Amilia Rose , Natty for short.
She was born in Prince Albert on December 28th 2007.
This year as Thanksgiving and Christmas are soon coming up I am getting so excited for that with my new daycare and my baby its going to be awesome.
This year I am not doing any Craft sales , Last year they all were very bad and I made hardly any money.
Im hoping this year my mom wants to go in to one craft sale with me and do baking with a few sewing things.

Next week My girls are coming for their first time at their new daycare. Im Excited for that too as I have everything! I got my Graco Stroller that I have always wanted, I thought I could take the front tray from the 2003 stroller and Clip it on well its to big that is the tray just 2 inches to wide So I can not clip a carseat on that, Thank goodness I dont have to. BUt I was freaking out cause I wanted a double stroller but wasnt going to pay over $20. which is cheap but I have seen a brand new Graco double glid for $10.00 Anyways I had dicided if I dont find one and I got an infant & a toddler I would put the infant in the "Moby" wrap I made.
But I got a Cosco double stroller which is very heavy , Its not too old , Its the same one they used for the twins on 7th Heaven.
Its a nice one. And it was FREE so I loved that. Plus if I had to I could put 1 or 2 carseats in it.
So Im happy that I got one and I also picked up two pack & plays well ones a pack 'n play and one is like the first portable play pens by fisher price a steel frame LOl But its in good condition and I like it.
2 Portable High Chairs & tons of toys.
I made 2 Crib sets Purple Flowered blankets & Mint Green Flannel for the bottom of the Blanket and the Crib Sheets. They will be warm < I am also making Crib Pads that will be warm for the winter .
Also Picked up a few clothes and 2 hats.
2 big fleece blankets for the stroller.
2 Change Pads , I want to keep them with their own Daycare Items like they will have the same beds every time they are hear and it will not be shared with, As with changing pads.
It will cut down on passing any colds or what ever. I also numbered everything 1 and 2 so that I can keep everything in order like Crib 1 ,Sheet 1, Change Pad 1, Hat 1 Ect. LOl.
Im getting all these Crafts together to make for Thanks giving ,I dont celebrate Helloween as in the Decorations so I try and stick to Turkeys & Pumkins like fall themed Items.
I did buy Nataleigh-Shay Helloween t-shirts and a Jak-o-lantern Pail. Nataleigh-Shay will be joining me and Kenzie this year for Trick or treating.


Man I keep jumping all over. Its the Excitment of everything. This is my first week off since Christmas and before that it was June 2007. Its long over due but I am spending it Organizing and CLEANING! Man Monday it was so Hot so I didnt get all that I wanted done, I cleaned my room . Today (Tuesday) I throw all that was left on my floor on to my bed and Vacuumed my room, I havent done that in weeks and Since Chase is gone now I wont have to vacuum to much.
Then I vacuumed the halway & Stairs then I cleaned the floors with my new bissel pro heat steam cleaner, I did my room, Hallway, & a Spot the cat throw up on.
The up stairs looks great, now Wednesday I will vacuum the living room and I will set up the cribs in my room & organize the toys that will be coming up stairs.

Also another thing that happened this August was the passing of my 6 year old Baby Chase Wally Enns. I could tell he was going down hill since winter so its been a few months since he started going down hill ,I could tell he was suffering a bit. I went to feed him one night and he was in a corrner (Nothing diferent then normal) but when I put his food in he wasnt jumping around. So I was petting him and talking to him, Im glad I did cause I didnt know he was going to pass away. Im very glad he did go when he did and I am very glad I got to say good bye. I didnt cry cause I find no point in crying like crazy when you know they are going to die or you know they are in pain. Im not cold hearted I just know when it is their time. And it was his time he had a problom with going to the bath room, I wont say anymore to that cause it was pretty discusting but I could tell he was in ALOT of pain .
So the summer has been fun full of new poeple and sad endings.
Its been nice not haveing a boyfriend this past year, there has only been a few times where I wish I did have someone to share stuff with like when all your friends to go the ex or 8th street and they are all coupled up lol then you kinda feel like a wheel but Tiffany has a good way of making you feel good when she ditches her boyfriend and drags me along lol.
Its been fun getting to know Karlin, I have a feeling he is going to be around for a long LONG time. He is a good guy.
Its such a funny story about those two.
Funny stuff and I them all the best.

Well Im out , Hopfully I will keep you more posted. But my life is going to get a heck of alot busier with Kids, My Baby & SEWING! Man that is gonna get busY!

Cold out side

So its August 10th , Its been very hot up until now. Today has been a nice change and I pitty the people who work as I am working right now, Lol Im baby sitting, The yungest is sleeping very nice and Hopfully long the other two have been watching Movies,eating and playing quietly. Snowballs sleeping next to me as I am writing this, Chase is sleeping as is Chip. This is one of those days you wish you had off so you could wake up late or normal time, It changes alot of things when you can just laz around. Wake up go down stairs Turn on the Tube with a few good movies, Eat,Drink (Hot chocolate,Pepsi ect)Make smores with a roaring fire next or in the same room as you,Your pets laying beside you and really just relaxe while the world goes down the drain.
It feels like a winter day. Except your not up at the lake with an amazing view, The icy bite as you walk out side to colect your wood and take a huge breath in of that icy smoky smell of everyones or just your fire going. The smell of pine anf wood burning is Ideal for a lazy day. Or it makes you think of smoking meat, A Nice Sasuge smoking on the grill and You get dinner ready. Baking and sewing also comes along with this kind of day. You fill the house of baking and your fire place going. You walk out side and again you have that Icy,Piney ,firey Smell. The thought of it is just so beath taking and makes me wish I was up their with either with someone or by my self. Working on something I have on my list of stuff to get done.Or just the thought of doing nothing sounds pretty damn good at this moment.
I think all of this came about is when I started getting Christmas stuff together for my business website. I am more festive this year and have started planning, I am excited and wanting to be able to sew my toys for november. My busyest time of year is now to January. The getting ready for sales while getting raedy for Christmas it all comes together at the end but sometimes you wish you would have put more in to it. I love Christmas and the thought of spending money on people. I love spending money Its Fun to see something and think of that person it should go to. Its great and that fact that You can Spend tons of money and No one can tell you how much your going through . LOl .
Oh I am looking forword to the end of this (Kids being at my house) And just getting back to my life.Sewing, Taking inventory, Coming up with fun things to create and thinking of the fun kids can have with them is Joyus and A Great feeling. I cant wait. Except this year unlike others I have a Job other then My Business, I will be working with Karalees Mom (Shelly) And for those of you who dont know who Karalee is, She is my brothers Girlfriend her Mom is Shelly. But Thats Tuesday to Thursday I gave myself a 4 Day weekend every week so I can still get my Toys made for November. And so I still can have my creativity side of my brain to think of toys to come up with every few weeks. This way I will not be a total wreck.
Man The Girls have been watching Christmas Movies, Searching for Christmas Ideas And the Chilly Feel out side has made me Excieted for Christmas .I have eve started to shop, I maybe early to start but that doesnt mean I will have it all done a few months a head of time. Shopping for people takes time and you must buy it when you see it or else You will miss out, Always save recipes cause you never know when You might find something way better that fits that person.Ive learnt that over the years . I find if I lose the Recipe Then I have to keep it for my self and you find your self with more gifts for your self then you bought for your friends. LOl.

Well I should get back to work. I really dont have much to do. As I have been writing this me & the girls cleaned up and still watching the Smirfs. They wanted something They havent seen before well what is better then the old Kid shows I used to watch when I was little, Kinda makes me feel old when they havnt seen the smirfs before. But it keeps them busy and That I am Happy about. That and Sleeping bUt I hear the Small one Crying so I better Go. Tootles!.

Its been a LONG TIME!

WOW Its been awhile. Whats new in my life?. Well Im now 20! and ive spent my summer baby sitting , I have had up to 5 kids in my house at once and managed to take them all to the park a few times!. Iv always wanted a daycare well this summer I got my Prayer answered By having to the two daycares I work at call me up to ask it I would take a Few of there Kids.
Plus Ami & Colson.
So Far Ive gone through alot of crying! Four teeth Paige has had ,plus learned how to walk and talk ,KInda in sentancesToday I got one kid who was all for my house and then the next (He's only been here one day and he was sick) Came crying ,I finally just got him to stop but man he's as loud as Paige when you try and change her Diaper when she is over tired!.
What a change Yesturday he was So excited and today he doesnt want to be here. REally I dont have the toys for him cause there either Baby toys or girls toys. But Emma will be here tomorrow and they are from the same daycare so thats good. Maybe he will want to come, I hope so anyways!.
He's such a cutie!.
They all Are!. Paige Age 1, Emma Age 5 (Sisters with Paige, Sabastian Age 4, And then Ava whom is 3 Years old. Then Ami And Colson who I had last week and Im not taking them again cause My Dad only alowed me to have 2 but then Ava is only 3 days a week so he said I could have 3 which turned out to be 5 for a week and then turned in to 4 for two weeks then its 3 for only one week.
Its all Good I love kids and Have always wanted a daycare , But I wont a Building for it. I dont like having all these toys in my living room, 1 Theres not enough space for them all, 2 they distory things that arnt mine or they wreck the toys,3 They make such a mess and I cant stand that, I like clean 5 times a day or more then when they leave I vacumm,Wash floors, Wash dishes, Get eveything ready for the next day (Diaper bags,Food, Snacks...)
In Fall I start at SHelly's Daycare SO Im gonna be working with My Brothers girlfriends Mom. Its cool we get along well. Im a very blunt person and She is Just a little bit less blunt as I am. So Its good.
I Miss Dakota, Ive baby sat him at Shelly's twice by my self and a few other times with Shelly. HE's a cutie! and Is crazy,Out going all in all a total Clown a VERY Entertaining one.
But I do say one thing BABY sitting is a Cure for wanting a Kid. Of Corse your kids are going to be how you raise them so If you raise like spoiled brats then thats what you have to seal with HAHAHAHA! Sucks to be you. But If you raise them to be good kids even with having every toy there is then RIGHT ON FOR YOU!, its not a hard thing to do.
But Sending your teen daught out to baby sit a few spoiled childeren THAT in it self will cure her. SHe could be so good with kids and have a total tolrence for them and still get annoyed and sick of them.
Last year I spent the summer baby sitting a 9 Yr Old & A 6 Yr Old. It was cool when you were at the park and they didnt bother you but when you got home and tried to feed them . HOLY!.
There was fighting all day long. The 9 Yr Old foght me to go to the park and go home, His parents rules about the computer and tv, And There FOOD!. I even go hit on my arm and My Arm swelled up, You could see his hand print in my skin. I so Grounded him and wouldnt let him leave his room until an hour before his parents got home. I didnt tell them even though I sould have but it wasnt a big deal and Ive known him since he was 3. So what ever.


Well Ive kinds gotten off topic here .
Nothings really happend this month. Just My Birthday,Baby sitting, And Hanging out with the group. Well its not the same group we started out with, It Started with Me ,Kyle & Dustin that since I was 4,Dustin 3 & Kyle 2. Then we added Becky when we were in our tweens. Then Added Tim in 2004 who added Tiffany & Stacey then Lisa, And Add Everyones Boyfriends and Girl friends. Now Its Tiffany, Kyle & Karalee, Me and Jason , Dustin & Jessica. Tim is Still in our group sometimes same with Lisa but they are working and busy with other stuff. And with Stacey well I havent seen her since she ask if I wanted to go to my Ex & His Girlfriends Baby Shower for Their new daught. RETARTED If there should be anyone that should not have a baby it should THEM!. Thier Kids not even that cute.
Its funny how that want anyways.
This is a stupid and fucked up story.

Okay. She was 14 and he was 17 They were dating & Apparently thy got pragnant but then she fell down the stairs and lost it, Then they broke up. He dated some one else with the same name as his ex Girlfriend. Then Broke up with her after a few years of them chating on eachother and gettin back together he dated me for 3 months and then I broke up with him on our anniversary (He celebraited every month :|) So I crushed his heart and he didnt get over me until his baby came this year. I bet still if I went over to him and said I miss you he would come back Thats how stupied he is!. But After me a month later he got back together with his first ex at the begining ,Im sure thats not his first girlfriend Its just what I know.
He got back together with her and he cheated on her a few times and they bok up and got back togeher then on one of their brake ups she told him she was pragnant HAHA At that time he was with some slut and was sleeping with her!. so FUCKED UP!. I mean really!.
Anyways there has been a few diferent story's and iv gotten off topice, BUT ITS my crazy messed up blog so what ever!.

Well Im out for now!.

Sunday New Years Eve - The Break Up & New Beginings

Sunday morning new years eve.

Jacoba Woke up at 5:30 to work out then get ready for church.
7:35 I comes down stairs and before I run out the door I stop to feed my animals then heads in to town. Im way to early
for whorship practice so I think I'll stop in at my boyfriend Ryans place to
wake him up and maybe he'll discide to come to church for once.
Tyler is out side letting the dog "Nutsy" out when
I pull up in My Black 2005 Dodge 3500 I get out and say hi then I
walk in to the house and to Ryans room pick up the sheets And blanket lifts then up then lets them fall back
down giving him a nice chill to his shirtless back. He jumps up and gives Me
this *What do you think your doing* kind of look! I just stand there and
smile while saying Goodmorning Sweety! In My perky morning voice. Ry then grab his sheets and Blanket Closes his eyes and trys
to sleep .
NO! GET UP I Sherik. Your coming to church with me.
Ryan Gives me this flat out NO!.
I just stands there with this *I'm getting annoyed and I won't stand for
this very long* look on My face.
Ry then looks at Me and sees that I'm serious and getting ticked off.
You know I'm not the "Church going type!" Ryan tells Me.
I say I know!, you've told me many times! but you KNOW how I feel
about it. And you don't seem to care at all!.
WILL YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL! NOW LAY OFF!! Screams Ryan.
FINE THEN! I really can't see the point of staying with you as you dont seem to care about my beliefs or what you made a comitment to when we first started this relastionship! WERE OVER! I scream at him.
I turn around and walk out as I slam his bedroom door.
Ty asks is everything alright. I Said Its Really Great! (In My Cheery Tone), Give him a Hug .Climb in to my truck & blast Karosine by Amanda
Lambert as I drive over to Collens house Who is Like a Bother to me Hes my best friend .I told him everything and just let it all out. I've been needing to
break up with Ryan for afew weeks but couldn't do it and this was just one of
those things you can't over look for to long . Its now 8:30 ,Collen says we need to get you to church for whorship Practice . Collen takes my purse and looks for my keys gives me back the pruse and says I'm driving,We need to stop some place before church.
He pulls in to the drive through at Timdys for an Ice Cap ,Coffe & a dozen
donuts.
Collen Cheers me up in his special Brotherly way that he has, then looks at me and tells me I need to fix my face!.
Oh Thats nice Collen ,Thanks!.
Haha No Problom. But seriously You do! then he pulls down my sunvisor and opens then mirror.
I Look in the Miorror,Theres makup running down my face and I look like i just got Punched out.I Start Re-Applying my makup as we are turnning in the to church parking lot.Before we get out Collen looks at me then stuffs a powder cherry filled donut in my mouth .I chew it fast then I Ask can I now have my keys back?.
Nope you cant! I'm driving us to luch after then were going to Grandmas and Grandpas (They are my Grandma and Grandpa But Collens been around us for so long he thinks of them as his own).We then walk in ,him with his Coffee( Blah!) and I with my ice Cap.Practice is at 10:00 and service starts
at 11:00. After church we get in to the truck & I turn on my Cell ,No
texts, No voice mail ,Nothing!. Collen then grabs the cell out of my hands and puts it in his pocket .I Look at him then say Why did you take my Cell?.
because You dont need it and If it happends that you do I'll answer it and Let you use it ,then he stuffs another donut in my face. As I try and eat it fast so I can talk. Then I scream STOP DOING THAT!.
He Just looks at me and Laughs as he eats one.
We Then pull out of the church parking lot, and we header to Mcy d's for lunch .After Lunch we go over to the club to get set up for our new years eve party.
The rest of the band shows up & helps with setting things up & putting up
decorations . We go over the whole night with eachother, Like when the band is suposed to be up there and which bands go up at what time,When there is Karaoke and so forth.
4:00
Collen and I head to Grandma & Grandpa Andersons house for the family sunday
supper.
The Party starts at 9:00 so we stayed at Grandma and Grandpas till 7:00,They live about 45 minutes out of town. We Arive at Jays Night Club on 8th at 7:55. Jay Closes the bar to the public for Special events like this.Jay's Body gaurds are at all the doors, Only People on the list are allowed in ,150 of our closest friends are coming and on that list. Most everyone who helped plan this thing are there already The bands set up and sitting at the bar.I brought My Fiddle & My Guitar and place them behind the stage wall.Then I go to the bar,As The first 50 people walk in Im Standing behind the bar making a drink ,after an hour of being there the place has filled up And there are a load of boxs and Bottles by the bar,Everyone who was invited had to bring drinks of some sort and or something to eat ,like chips or what ever, I Brought Tons of appitizers I made ahead of time. It is now time for me to go up there and get it started as I walk up to the stage and look over all the poeple to see whos come I see Ryan and Tyler standing there looking at me while the're talking to Kevin And Trista, And There is This one Guy Standing there with Devin,I dont know who he is but He's Cute and He's Smiling AT me!. I start speaking while the band is gettin ready behind me.Hey Ya'll ,Hows it going everyone? Excited to get this night started? I say to the crowd as I'm trying not to let Ryan bother me But Stareing at the Tall Dark Cutie In The Middle of the room. The Whole Crowd starts cheering, Okay everyone this is the plan for tonight to kick it off is MiddleTin,then we got Karaoke for two hours, After that we got the Hick town girls And Then us the Hick Town Girls Count it down to New Years!. Theres Drinks on the right! And Food on the Back wall. Ya'll have Fun ALRIGHT!.My Band Middle-Tin Starts it off As I sing The Cutie moves to the front with Devin.He stares right in to the eyes and smiles.Its this amazing look that Hits you hard in the heart,It feels Great with this tingle. After an hour we Finish off playing and we get the stage ready for karaoke. I walked to the bar to see Danielle & Dan (They have been going out since me and Collen first brought them together when we were 16,They are now engaged as of last week on the 25th)Devin and The Cutie Move to the back of the room by Danie and Dan Where I was now. Danie Gives me a Big hug then hands me Martini and asks so have you seen him here yet.
Yep sure have. He was like one of the first 50 to walk through the door.But I see Someone else who is in my eyes view,He's looking at us right now.She turns and looks to the spot where I am stareing at.
Yeah he's right over there with Tyler walking this way Dan tells us.
Collen comes up from behind me and Lifts me on to his shoulders and says your gonna sing a song with me ,Right as Devin and the Tall Dark Cutie are walking over to where I was ,but Im not there Im on my way to the front!
He places me on the stage and picks out the song, Its play somethin country by Brooks and Dunn, Excepts its more like re written by Jacoba And Collen!.
Its good we made it a duet. Then Court,Britt,Danie and Alexa Run up on stage and we play Dont Cha by the Pussy Cat dolls again we changed it to country,I was the lead singer as I am in my bands . Everyone liked it ,even the ones that dont really like country!.The Tall Dark Cuite again at the front Wow He's HOT!.
We get off and The Girls grab me . we Go hide! Lol Okay not really but we kinda moved in a group around Ryan trying not to be seen, Success! Were through!, I stayed on the Stairs with the group until Hick Town Girls had to go up(Tonight I wasnt singing by my self I was with my bands)
.The Downside to this group move was I had to Sacrifice Not meeting this Tall Dark Cuite Upside is I wasnt any where near Ryan!.
Karaoke ends and we get back to the stage sang a few skaskatoon hits of ours then we counted down to new years.Then it was just the DJ Who played after that for the rest of the night.
Soon everyone left and so did we. We all have to meet back here tomorrow to clean up so Jay can have his Club Back in order and running.
I successfully passed Ryan the whole night. Except I got home and Had two Messages from him ,But Collen just earased them.
So I have no clue what he all said. Collen was sleeping in his old room down in the basment because he knew that Ryan would be coming over at some point and Ryan being drunk would have made it all worse.
7:00 Am I get out of bed and head downstairs to eat Skiping my work out but still feeling Really great!, I went out side to feed the animals then Came back inside to feed those ones,I Couldnt for the life of me get The Tall Dark Guy out of my head!. I would Ask Devin but I dont really know him since he has only been going to the church for a year and kinda sticks with his family. Collen got up at 2:00 ,Soon after Danie and Dan came over the guys went up stairs to the 3rd level where the reck room/Sports room is.(Im a Huge sports fan) Danie and I wentinto the Hot tub and had some girl talk which was the Tall Dark Dude at the Club who was with Devin that we both dont know. Afew days have went by and Only two E-mails, One Text and 5 Voice mails a Day later. And No Sign of the tall Dark Dude!. Friday coms and Ryan stops in by Collens work to talk to him about me. 3 Hours later Collen Stops in to eat before we go out with our friends,He Tells me everything Ryan Said and Sudggested I talk with him, As I had planned from the start but was waiting a bit for him to relize what was going on.
Saturday morning!.
I get out of bed at 5;30 Work out, Shower, Eat and then Go shopping But before shopping I stopped in at Ryans. Nice and Early so hes still in bed.
I pull up to his house Again Ty is out side with Nusty and Tells me to just walk in! My Pleasure in deed I walk in and to his room , Lift up the Blanket and Sheets to let them Float down again giving him that nice chill!(I love doing that) He Jumps up and looks at me then gives me a hug, I push him off and I tell him we need to talk this over!. He agrees and Puts on some pants.We talk it over as he sits on his bed and Me in his Computer chair. 30 minutes go by and we talked it over, Were all good now and I left. Fast and Easy is how I like it!. Finish Shopping and Lunch with My Mom ,Dad, 7 Year Old sister Bridgett,16 Year Old Brother Matt and sister Amy, Oldest Brother Jered,Wife Lexi, Kids Hannah-Leigh,Bryerlee & Sarah, Oldest Sister Mia ,Husband George, Twin Boys Colsen & Kody, 22 Year old Brother Dean And Wife Sam. I Go on with my day .Soon Its sunday and Guess whos there but the tall Dark Dude with Devin!.

I'm really kinda bad at hedging my bets
Straddling the fence just to get my feet wet
It's sorta like me to jump on in
To see if I sink or swim
So maybe I'm a fool for taking this fall
But it's all for you or nothing at all
Too late for a little in love
I'm all the way in

Ain't no kinda, sorta, maybe
When I'm holding you baby
Halfway ain't near enough
Every waking minute
Got my heart and soul in it
No I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

This is high wire walking
I don't need a net
Parachute jumping, ain't pulled the cored yet
No turning back now, I'm goin' all the way down

Ain't no kinda, sorta, maybe
When I'm holding you baby
Halfway ain't near enough
Every waking minute
Got my heart and soul in it
No I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

I might learn the hard way
That's the chance I take
Knowing there's no such thing
As a little heartache

Ain't no kinda, sorta, maybe
When I'm holding you baby
Halfway ain't near enough
Every waking minute
Got my heart and soul in it
No I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

No such thing as a little in love
I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

People Not Knowing how to make up THEIR MINDS! & Hurtsing Others in the Process

Some People should Learn to make up their minds and stop sending the wrong messages!.
STOP PLAYING WITH PEOPLS HEARTS AND MAKE UP YOUR MINDS!.

I Want to ask you some questions and I want you to leave a comment with your Answer!.
If You Hard core firlt with someone does that mean you like them?
Does it mean you have a stronge enough feeling for them that you want to date, Go out with them as more then just "Friends" ?.
Or Calling them out of the blue for just the a random question that you know well but just want to hear their voice?.

What are your signs of you liking someone?
Is it Showing up at there house randomly?
Or showing up at a place where you know they are going to be.


Is It When your with them you like to sit REAL close and have play wars?
Is It looking at them in such a way that everyone in the room can see that you truly care for that person?.


Or is it flirting with them for a few years or months just for fun?.
ARe you just playing with their heart cause your bored and would like to have some fun.

Or Do You Send them confusing messages like , One day you discide to show up at there house and flirt constantly with them. Then the next day just act like nothing happened at all and that you dont feel like flirting with them as if they didnt matter as they did the day before. When The other person is so confused and not knowing what the Hell is going on!.


When you play with someones heart, Its really like your ripping it out.

Im Just so sick of of this!, Its a commen thing but it just hurts the one your playing with!.

Love is something you dont play with.
God doesnt play with your heart why would you play with anothers?.

Guys and Gals! Dont Play with someones heart It Hurts BAD!, Make sure you know what you want then let them know. That may Hurt them but not as much as it does if you left them in the dark,Confused and Missled Jumping from acting like you like them so much then acting like they couldnt be worth your time.

This is a story of a friends of mine:
Brook was starting a new church and didnt know anyone there , SO she got in the baby sittin in the nursary and ushering so she could meet people, Sunday school was just finishing so she thought she would join in the fall.
The frist time she walks in to the church there is this guy (Cohen) standing there with his friends, Now she didnt care eventhough he was cute she just didnt care about him and just ignored him.
Every sunday for months he would just watch her!.
Then fall came and She was in the nursary before sunday school then Sunday school and church or having to usher.
Every sunday morning Cohen would come early to sunday school so he could walk past the nursary door and stare at Brook, She knew full well what he was trying to do and just ignored him, She didint even say hi to him!.
Then she would go to sunday school and he would sit straight across from her stareing. When Cohen was looking at her she looked in to his eyes and Saw that he was thinking hard like really hard.
This is the kind of guy that you can not read even if your life was on the line you could not read him! Even when you think you got him pinned to a point he turns around and does what you least expect!.
Sunday school let out and Today she had to usher Now she has been ushering all spring and summer and not once has she seen Cohen usher!, But she goes and puts her books under the table and starts to usher. She looks over to see her team mates and guess whos on the other door eh You guessed its Cohen!.
Every time she would glace over there to make sure she wasnt going to miss the team leaders orders, Well everytime Brook did that Cohen would look straight in to Brooks eyes and Smile this Smile that went straight through you and hit your heart. Well Brook just kept doing what she was doing cause Brook really had no likeings for Cohen.
Then Brook Fell for Cohen but took it slow, She started to flirt back and talking to him on msn and all that stuff then one night at youth she was really sick but went anyways cause Cohen had asked her to come (Cohen had started to e-mail Brook everyday after school and right before school so she woke up to an e-mail every morning) She hid her sickness and went on ,The night started with Cohen and Brook just hanging out with the group and then while making the commercials Cohen took Brooks hand and was flirting with her and she back cause she thought she could, She thought that it was okay and that Cohen really liked her. The Night went on like that and when it came to watching them ,Brook just wanted to stand cause she wasnt feeling well ,Cohen agreed to just stand him unaware of her being sick, Then after awhile of standing they sat down on the gym floor behind everyone else who was wathing the commercials . Cohen put his arm and wrapped it around her waist and pulled her closer to him as they sit there they arnt playing any attion to the commercials at all, People walking by and looking at them in "Awe" at them, some even asking if they where going out lol.
They just replyed with a no.
They went on like that for a month only seeing each other at youth and church. She got him to join her in the christmas play they had to march . Brook got put at the beginings of the line and Cohen at the end as they practiced they would wink, Mouth words and just look in to each others eyes. (Brook thinks Cohen really likes her and that there is going to be somthng of this, This being her frist time falling in love with someone who tried so hard to get her) Then he was late one morning for sunday school and showed up in the nursary to see her, Red Eyes and looks like Crap! He Apoligised for being late and explained he was with a friend that her dad had a heartattack and she needed a ride, That he was with her until 2:am then slept through his alarm. Practice had been canciled that day Brook told him. And Cohen asked if it was ok if he went home and slept , She said yes do that but say hi to your dad frist (He had ben at his mothers all week and was going to sleep at his dads.His dad was at church that morning) He did and went home. Then E-mailed her after he woke up.

Over the week he had been kind of cold to her, she didnt know what she did but kept being nice. Then at youth friday he didnt show up and had a million excuses. It kind of made her mad cause they were diferent every time she talked to him.

Sunday the last practice until the play:
He came in late . Didnt even look at her and went on with the march, Everytime they passed eachother Cohen would give Brook this cold look. Brook ignored him and went on talking with her friends acting like he wasnt there.

The day of the play:
Cohen's late I mean REAL late Its about to start and hes not here, They get someone else to take his place. Finally Cohen comes and then talks to the leader and then leaves!.
Brook gets home after it and asks Cohen why he was not in the play Cohen said they found someone else so I said good im going to work.
And that was that.

Cohen went on like this for two years of youth and church! Then Grad came and he stopped going to church and youth.
He got super busy with his work or as there was many jobs he worked at through the day it got so bad it was 4 - 5 diferent jobs a week all working then one after another. He didnt have time to do anything except work!.
They talked online here and there not much really and when she started talking to him it sounded forced, So she stopped making conversation and would let him start it. Brook went on with her life and got a boyfriend.One day Cohen saw her picture on msn and Freaked out 'WHOS That?' He asked The only time he would talk to her)
She said Oh him he's my boyfriend.
Cohen never said a word back and logged off.
Then Randomly showed up at her house and talking with her brother making plans with him to do stuff. He never kept them , except a few times of him needing something or being in one of her brothers car videos.
Cohen Showed up at her house after following her brother home from youth, He stood out side talking to her brother and was just stareing at the house. Brook saw him pull up and thought she would go out, She hasnt seen him in a LONG time and she was happily dating someone, She thought it was safe so she waited 10 minutes and then went out side to say hi!, She walked out side and Cohen looked at her in that way that you think he can just see in to your heart and find that one little piece that is deep down inside of her of the love she onces had and was still a little there.
All eyes on her , Her brother wasnt even getting heard Cohen would just talk to her , Her brother excused him self and was going in to eat. Brook said well I should go in and eat as well, See yeah and truned around to walk back up her drive way. Cohen Stopped her by saying "What, Thats it?".
Brook Asked him well what do you want?.
Cohen said I dont know?
Brook walks up to him and Puts out her hand to shake his hand.
Cohen takes her had and Gives her this Big Hug.
Then they say good bye and they leave.

Brook & her Boyfriend Brokeup a month after of them agreeing it just wasnt working out and that it was mutual. Finds out a month later after talking to her ex he had a girlfriend and has had her for a month and a half, That over lapped her!.
She went on with her life and all.
Having to put up with Cohen going back and forth!.

A few months later its easter and Cohen shows up at youth and stays for a coupld of hours hanging out with Brook and her brother. Then says well I gotta go to work now ttyl, Stands there looking at Brook then says it again and stands there for a few minutes then discides to leave. he does and everyone tells Brook to get out side he was looking for a hug lol. Brook walks out side and starts talking to him and all , She opened her arms to him and he gets this big grin on his face and runs up and hugs her BIG, Says well Happy Easter if I dont get to see you again. gets in his car and drives away with abig grin on his face.

After a week from easter he logs on to msn. Doesnt talk to her so she thought she would and Finally She Went up and Asked Him. Is there ever going to be a you and me ?.
Cohen: umm...I dont know, Maybe who know.I gotta go to ball. We well finish this later.
After three weeks he loggs back on.
Brook: Brings up his Box and asks "Are you ready to finish this conversation?"
Cohen:Umm Okay.
Brook: Okay Im gonna ask you once more what do you think of us and will there ever be a you and me together?.Im Sick of sitting here being played with.
Cohen: Maybe, I dont know But I have a girlfriend!.
Cohen: I have to go bye.
Brook: ...

Brook felt like she was going to die , Her Heart had just been ripped out and kicked around for the past 4ish years!.

A Year Later she meets a guy and dates him for 7 months still kind of thinking of Cohen through out the dateing.
Brook brakes up with her boyfriend ,cause they just dont go well together and that they are just to diferent people and Discides shes not going to think of Cohen Anymore and that he is just GONE!(Gone like a fraight train). Then Cohen Randomly calls Brook and asks when youth starts she tells him and he shows up at youth. Brook said hi and then ignored him the 3 hours he was there.
Meets a Great guy, Falls in love and Thats the end of Cohen!.

Like the song says from Adem Gregory - Dont send the invitation if you dont want to party!.