I'm really kinda bad at hedging my bets
Straddling the fence just to get my feet wet
It's sorta like me to jump on in
To see if I sink or swim
So maybe I'm a fool for taking this fall
But it's all for you or nothing at all
Too late for a little in love
I'm all the way in

Ain't no kinda, sorta, maybe
When I'm holding you baby
Halfway ain't near enough
Every waking minute
Got my heart and soul in it
No I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

This is high wire walking
I don't need a net
Parachute jumping, ain't pulled the cored yet
No turning back now, I'm goin' all the way down

Ain't no kinda, sorta, maybe
When I'm holding you baby
Halfway ain't near enough
Every waking minute
Got my heart and soul in it
No I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

I might learn the hard way
That's the chance I take
Knowing there's no such thing
As a little heartache

Ain't no kinda, sorta, maybe
When I'm holding you baby
Halfway ain't near enough
Every waking minute
Got my heart and soul in it
No I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

No such thing as a little in love
I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

People Not Knowing how to make up THEIR MINDS! & Hurtsing Others in the Process

Some People should Learn to make up their minds and stop sending the wrong messages!.
STOP PLAYING WITH PEOPLS HEARTS AND MAKE UP YOUR MINDS!.

I Want to ask you some questions and I want you to leave a comment with your Answer!.
If You Hard core firlt with someone does that mean you like them?
Does it mean you have a stronge enough feeling for them that you want to date, Go out with them as more then just "Friends" ?.
Or Calling them out of the blue for just the a random question that you know well but just want to hear their voice?.

What are your signs of you liking someone?
Is it Showing up at there house randomly?
Or showing up at a place where you know they are going to be.


Is It When your with them you like to sit REAL close and have play wars?
Is It looking at them in such a way that everyone in the room can see that you truly care for that person?.


Or is it flirting with them for a few years or months just for fun?.
ARe you just playing with their heart cause your bored and would like to have some fun.

Or Do You Send them confusing messages like , One day you discide to show up at there house and flirt constantly with them. Then the next day just act like nothing happened at all and that you dont feel like flirting with them as if they didnt matter as they did the day before. When The other person is so confused and not knowing what the Hell is going on!.


When you play with someones heart, Its really like your ripping it out.

Im Just so sick of of this!, Its a commen thing but it just hurts the one your playing with!.

Love is something you dont play with.
God doesnt play with your heart why would you play with anothers?.

Guys and Gals! Dont Play with someones heart It Hurts BAD!, Make sure you know what you want then let them know. That may Hurt them but not as much as it does if you left them in the dark,Confused and Missled Jumping from acting like you like them so much then acting like they couldnt be worth your time.

This is a story of a friends of mine:
Brook was starting a new church and didnt know anyone there , SO she got in the baby sittin in the nursary and ushering so she could meet people, Sunday school was just finishing so she thought she would join in the fall.
The frist time she walks in to the church there is this guy (Cohen) standing there with his friends, Now she didnt care eventhough he was cute she just didnt care about him and just ignored him.
Every sunday for months he would just watch her!.
Then fall came and She was in the nursary before sunday school then Sunday school and church or having to usher.
Every sunday morning Cohen would come early to sunday school so he could walk past the nursary door and stare at Brook, She knew full well what he was trying to do and just ignored him, She didint even say hi to him!.
Then she would go to sunday school and he would sit straight across from her stareing. When Cohen was looking at her she looked in to his eyes and Saw that he was thinking hard like really hard.
This is the kind of guy that you can not read even if your life was on the line you could not read him! Even when you think you got him pinned to a point he turns around and does what you least expect!.
Sunday school let out and Today she had to usher Now she has been ushering all spring and summer and not once has she seen Cohen usher!, But she goes and puts her books under the table and starts to usher. She looks over to see her team mates and guess whos on the other door eh You guessed its Cohen!.
Every time she would glace over there to make sure she wasnt going to miss the team leaders orders, Well everytime Brook did that Cohen would look straight in to Brooks eyes and Smile this Smile that went straight through you and hit your heart. Well Brook just kept doing what she was doing cause Brook really had no likeings for Cohen.
Then Brook Fell for Cohen but took it slow, She started to flirt back and talking to him on msn and all that stuff then one night at youth she was really sick but went anyways cause Cohen had asked her to come (Cohen had started to e-mail Brook everyday after school and right before school so she woke up to an e-mail every morning) She hid her sickness and went on ,The night started with Cohen and Brook just hanging out with the group and then while making the commercials Cohen took Brooks hand and was flirting with her and she back cause she thought she could, She thought that it was okay and that Cohen really liked her. The Night went on like that and when it came to watching them ,Brook just wanted to stand cause she wasnt feeling well ,Cohen agreed to just stand him unaware of her being sick, Then after awhile of standing they sat down on the gym floor behind everyone else who was wathing the commercials . Cohen put his arm and wrapped it around her waist and pulled her closer to him as they sit there they arnt playing any attion to the commercials at all, People walking by and looking at them in "Awe" at them, some even asking if they where going out lol.
They just replyed with a no.
They went on like that for a month only seeing each other at youth and church. She got him to join her in the christmas play they had to march . Brook got put at the beginings of the line and Cohen at the end as they practiced they would wink, Mouth words and just look in to each others eyes. (Brook thinks Cohen really likes her and that there is going to be somthng of this, This being her frist time falling in love with someone who tried so hard to get her) Then he was late one morning for sunday school and showed up in the nursary to see her, Red Eyes and looks like Crap! He Apoligised for being late and explained he was with a friend that her dad had a heartattack and she needed a ride, That he was with her until 2:am then slept through his alarm. Practice had been canciled that day Brook told him. And Cohen asked if it was ok if he went home and slept , She said yes do that but say hi to your dad frist (He had ben at his mothers all week and was going to sleep at his dads.His dad was at church that morning) He did and went home. Then E-mailed her after he woke up.

Over the week he had been kind of cold to her, she didnt know what she did but kept being nice. Then at youth friday he didnt show up and had a million excuses. It kind of made her mad cause they were diferent every time she talked to him.

Sunday the last practice until the play:
He came in late . Didnt even look at her and went on with the march, Everytime they passed eachother Cohen would give Brook this cold look. Brook ignored him and went on talking with her friends acting like he wasnt there.

The day of the play:
Cohen's late I mean REAL late Its about to start and hes not here, They get someone else to take his place. Finally Cohen comes and then talks to the leader and then leaves!.
Brook gets home after it and asks Cohen why he was not in the play Cohen said they found someone else so I said good im going to work.
And that was that.

Cohen went on like this for two years of youth and church! Then Grad came and he stopped going to church and youth.
He got super busy with his work or as there was many jobs he worked at through the day it got so bad it was 4 - 5 diferent jobs a week all working then one after another. He didnt have time to do anything except work!.
They talked online here and there not much really and when she started talking to him it sounded forced, So she stopped making conversation and would let him start it. Brook went on with her life and got a boyfriend.One day Cohen saw her picture on msn and Freaked out 'WHOS That?' He asked The only time he would talk to her)
She said Oh him he's my boyfriend.
Cohen never said a word back and logged off.
Then Randomly showed up at her house and talking with her brother making plans with him to do stuff. He never kept them , except a few times of him needing something or being in one of her brothers car videos.
Cohen Showed up at her house after following her brother home from youth, He stood out side talking to her brother and was just stareing at the house. Brook saw him pull up and thought she would go out, She hasnt seen him in a LONG time and she was happily dating someone, She thought it was safe so she waited 10 minutes and then went out side to say hi!, She walked out side and Cohen looked at her in that way that you think he can just see in to your heart and find that one little piece that is deep down inside of her of the love she onces had and was still a little there.
All eyes on her , Her brother wasnt even getting heard Cohen would just talk to her , Her brother excused him self and was going in to eat. Brook said well I should go in and eat as well, See yeah and truned around to walk back up her drive way. Cohen Stopped her by saying "What, Thats it?".
Brook Asked him well what do you want?.
Cohen said I dont know?
Brook walks up to him and Puts out her hand to shake his hand.
Cohen takes her had and Gives her this Big Hug.
Then they say good bye and they leave.

Brook & her Boyfriend Brokeup a month after of them agreeing it just wasnt working out and that it was mutual. Finds out a month later after talking to her ex he had a girlfriend and has had her for a month and a half, That over lapped her!.
She went on with her life and all.
Having to put up with Cohen going back and forth!.

A few months later its easter and Cohen shows up at youth and stays for a coupld of hours hanging out with Brook and her brother. Then says well I gotta go to work now ttyl, Stands there looking at Brook then says it again and stands there for a few minutes then discides to leave. he does and everyone tells Brook to get out side he was looking for a hug lol. Brook walks out side and starts talking to him and all , She opened her arms to him and he gets this big grin on his face and runs up and hugs her BIG, Says well Happy Easter if I dont get to see you again. gets in his car and drives away with abig grin on his face.

After a week from easter he logs on to msn. Doesnt talk to her so she thought she would and Finally She Went up and Asked Him. Is there ever going to be a you and me ?.
Cohen: umm...I dont know, Maybe who know.I gotta go to ball. We well finish this later.
After three weeks he loggs back on.
Brook: Brings up his Box and asks "Are you ready to finish this conversation?"
Cohen:Umm Okay.
Brook: Okay Im gonna ask you once more what do you think of us and will there ever be a you and me together?.Im Sick of sitting here being played with.
Cohen: Maybe, I dont know But I have a girlfriend!.
Cohen: I have to go bye.
Brook: ...

Brook felt like she was going to die , Her Heart had just been ripped out and kicked around for the past 4ish years!.

A Year Later she meets a guy and dates him for 7 months still kind of thinking of Cohen through out the dateing.
Brook brakes up with her boyfriend ,cause they just dont go well together and that they are just to diferent people and Discides shes not going to think of Cohen Anymore and that he is just GONE!(Gone like a fraight train). Then Cohen Randomly calls Brook and asks when youth starts she tells him and he shows up at youth. Brook said hi and then ignored him the 3 hours he was there.
Meets a Great guy, Falls in love and Thats the end of Cohen!.

Like the song says from Adem Gregory - Dont send the invitation if you dont want to party!.

MY Opinion! On what I think is RighT! :

God Gave us the bible to Read and Teach from. I find these days That there is a Shortage of the teaching from the REAL BIBLE Going on here , Ever since this one book came out it seems lke the churches now are only teaching on that. I Mean God Asked his Desiples Will I find Faith on this earth when I Return. I ask You this WIll there be FAith of GOD Or will there be the FAith of another?. Lets Make This a Stand for God ,Lets SPeak the Word of God from the Bible and Not of another!!!.

Valintines Day Romance

Hi I'm Crissa and this is my Valentines day story.

Morning February 14th 6:00am.
I wake up for my morning work out,Get out of bed with a jump my 3 big dogs, 7 tiny dogs and 6 cats follow me up the stairs to the Gym to work out for an hour.
7:00 I get to my room to take a shower, 20 minutes later I get out of the bathroom and walk over to my bed to get dressed. And On my bed was a Box of chocolates , A Big Box,A Small Box and a Card. I Open the card to read it and it says that he will pick me up at 8:00pm on the dot. (WHOS He? I Know no one that Has a Crush on me)
Next I open the Big Box and pull out a Beautiful Red backless dress, then I open the Small box and SHOES! Red ones that go Great with the dress!. I do say this guy has some taste, I put on the dress ,It fits perfectly!.
Wow I'm SO in shock I call my best friend Chris to tell him all about my morning! even though its only been a few hours its been pretty good.
He Starts joking with me and then says he has to get back to work, I say Bye and we both hang up.
I Start jumping around the room and almost faint Oh Need some sugar!.
Me and my dogs race down the stairs.
I stop in my tracks to find the whole entrance full of red, Pink & White Roses every where! wow I have never seen this many roses in one place before!.
I Really wonder who this could be, someone who knows my size and my colors.
I sit on the stairs just taking in this morning smelling all the roses its just a great smell that fills my house.
30 minutes later I go to the kitchen to eat and get ready for 9:30 when I have to teach Mommy and me Exercises with my Nieces and Nephew.

8:00 comes and the door opens and then Brooklyn come running in screaming Auntie Crissa, My Sister in law follows her in side carrying Jaycobe & Grace in their car seats with the HUGE Diaper bag, She stops and Looks around the room at all the roses. She says WOW Who'd you get all these from.
I don't know I just came down stairs to find them all, I also got a dress, Chocolates ands shoes with a card that told me when he was picking me up!.
Wow he sure knows a way to your heart ,Clothes, Chocolates and Flowers I'm impressed!.
This has to be someone you know eh?, Marissa says.
Yeah I have no clue The had writing I haven't seen before .
Well I have to get to work now, Hope you find out who he is.Bye, Marissa says.
Well It will be a big surprise for me .
Bye.

Okay Guys its ready to go to! I put them all in their car seats, the Pack'N'Plays so they will stay out of our ways.
Finish loading up the truck.
Half an hour later we get to there ,Its now 9:00.
Get In and set everything up.


Its now 1:00 where done at the gym and just left McDonald's. Heading home for nap time.At 3:00 where all going to the skate park at my church to talk with My best friend Danielle who works there today.

Danielle was Surprised and totally excited even though she secretly knows everything that's going on!.
5:00 now and the Joshua my Oldest brother picks up the kids from the skate park. I leave for home cause I need to get ready and all that.

I'm all ready and have been waiting for the last 30 minutes nervous as heck trying to read and keep my mind off of who it could be.
8:00 Ding Dong! the Door bell rings only once.
I open the door and My jaw opens in shock Theres a Cutie with curly blonde hair and blue eyes ,Really White Sparkly Teeth and a The BIGGEST Smile ever styling in the Black suit I made him for my grad 2 years ago with a new red tie .
I Yell CHRISTOPHER? What are you doing here?.(Chris has been my Best est friend for the past 10 years)
He stands there holding the cutest Beagle puppy dresses in a pink sweater with a Big red heart on it that says "Hug me" wrapped in a pink blanket and hands her to me.
My mouth still open I let out a Huge AWE! THANKS As I start to yell in Joy yet I'm really confused.
He says in a chuckle Ha Your Welcome.
And takes my jacket to help me put it on, Asks if I'm ready.
I nod yes as I'm still in shock,Oh!IshouldPutHerinaCagefornowIsshehousetrained? I ask him all in one small breath.
HA HA Yeppers She is ,He says with a huge grin.
Okay then lets go! He says.
He opens his truck door and helps me in ,Closes the door after me , goes around to his door and climbs in. I turn to him and ask where are we going?.
He doesn't answer me for at least 5 minutes and then says you'll-See and kind of sings it.
He Turns on the Cd player which has the CD I made for him from summer 2002 I went away for a month to Julliard, It was all of our favorite country songs.
We listen to it all the time but for some reason it just felt different this time, Maybe its because I was still in shock and wondering WHY he would do this for me.
I have had a crush on him since I first met him at youth.

We pull in the the parking lot of McDonald's (My Favorite Place in the world and could live there and never get sick of it!).
He says stay here and walks around to my door to let me out, We walk in to McDonald's and he tells me to get the condiments and to sit at that table , He points to a square table by the window. Okay I say .
He goes to order and comes back with A Quarter ponder meal super sized , A Big Extra meal super sized , Two Mcflurrys and Two Cherry Pies.
Wow You think you got enough food here!.
He Chuckles and says Oh Just eat okay, We have some place to go in two hours.
What Theres more? Where are we going?, I ask him.
Oh-You'll-See!. Theres the Singing again. (Chris doesn't Sing his words ever and Will only sing when the music is loud)

I look at him with a what are you planning kind of look. He just grins and keeps eating.
We both finish the load of food!.
He takes my hand and says. I Like you ,I really REALLy Like You and I have ever since you first walked in to my youth group and totally whipped my butt at basketball with a broken leg!, I don't know why we haven't ever dated before even though we hang out all the time and went to each others grads And have done so much together, I Think Its Its ITS. He stops ... ... .... .........
He Goes and reaches in his pocket and Bends down on one knee.
Before he says anything I say,CHRISwhatareyourdoing?.
He Keeps going and opens the box, Theres a Huge Diamond ring and holds it up to me and says I think its time I took action and discided on what I want to do and this I am Very Convinced, Will You marry me he Blurts out!.
Umm... I have this Puzzled look on my face and then say Wow I mean YESIWILL!.
By That Time the whole McDonald's where standing there watching us and Cheering!.
He Puts the ring on my finger and Gives me this Big Hug and its the kind that makes you weak in the knees, Thank Goodness I was sitting!.
He Tells me ,Oh I am so Glad! I was having Coffee with your dad the other day and I asked him And He told me it was about time I finally made a move.
I Grin Tears running down my face.
He hands me a Napkin.

Suddenly he jumps up! Okay Lets go!.
Helps me with my coat,The Door and Puts me in the truck, Shuts the door and runs to the other side and Jumps in. ( I mean REALLY jumps in)
I ask OKAYwherearewegoingnow?.
Nope Not a Word ,I'm Not telling! He says Keeping the biggest grin I have ever seen on his face.

Ten Minutes later we get to a hotel!.
I ask Him WHAT are we doing HERE?!?!.
He says -You'll-See-
He Opens the door and takes my hand, Leads me in to the hotel and to the ballroom. He knocks on the door twice, Then Opens it after 4 minutes. We walk in and the room is dark he leads me in to the middle of the ballroom and the lights go on!.
Bam all at once there comes a roar to the room, All around us are family and friends!.
We walk to the stage where my band is.
Chris Announces SHE SAID YES!.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO The Whole Room Roars!.
I Go to hug my parents,Brothers and Sisters,Grandparents ,Friends & My To be In laws.
WOW.

He Drops me off.Tells me That I'm An Amazing women and That he loves me SO MUCH!.
Kisses & Hugs me.Opens the door and says Have a Wonderful night Sweetie.
I Tell Him Goodnight and I love him too.
He shuts the door.
Jumps in to his truck the happiest man and drives away.
Its now 2:00am And I'm at home. So tired yet I'm jumping like a Mexican jumping bean.
I go and get my new puppy out of the BIG Cage that is for my German Shepperd.
Up Stairs and I Craw in to bed just trying to think of all that happened tonight, Pinching my self and wondering if this is just all a dreams.(That would be Mean)
But then I look at my finger and there is this Huge Rock! I Turn on my Cd Player and it plays the first CD that's in there ,ITS Me and Chrises Cd!. The one we grew up listening together , Its Gone through alot!.

Teen Parents!

I'm just so disgusted of this world!.I mean I go to church and all I see are single Teen Parents & Divorced parents! Those poor Kids having to pend their days in day cares!.
The thing that gets me is I was brought up in a time where it was uncommon & seen as WRONG!.& now its acceptable to be a single teen parent! They Are Actually PROUD of The Fact That they are a single teen parents.Even though they dint know ho to take care of it!.
Sex is such a huge thing like it always has been but was rarely heard of,it was a thing you just don't talk about & if your teen Daughter was pregnant then you didn't let her out of the house!.I see the grandparents taking care of there Kids Kids some of which didn't raise their own Kids & its along line of Teen girls in their family who haven't raised their own kids but raised their Grand kids I'm just so sick of it!.
Theres all these kids in foster care whom their parents don't want them yet don't have the brains to say hey I can't & don't want to take care of them why don't I put them up for adoption right away!.
My grandma has a boy (Shes a foster parent) This kid has FAS or now known as FAP he also is Autistic (?I think I spelt that wrong) the doctors haven't said yet but he has all the symptoms of Autism
He has been with us since he was 10 months old & now is gonna be 7 years in July!.He has two brothers Madason age 10 & Matthew age 2 1/2.We had Matthew at 3 Days old & he went to live with his Aunt at 4 Months.
Mackenzie And Madison Are Still In Foster Care.

We Got this Baby Girl At 3 Months Old, And He Mother had just turned 15 At The Time. Pamala Had Already Been Taken Away At 1 1/2 Months.
We Had Julie Over At The House So She Could See And Play With Pamala!. We Watched Her as She Played With Pamala, But She Played Like she was a Little Girl Playing House with Her Doll. She Would Put The Baby To Sleep, A Few Minutes Later She Took her Out Of Bed And Put her In The Swing, Then She Took Her out A few Minutes Later And Took her For a Walk. So Every Few Minutes She Would Put Pam In a Different Thing , Change Her Clothes Every Few Minutes.
It was Nuts!. When We First Got Pam She Was Trying to Sit Already Well At 3 Months Babies Bones Are Not Hard enough to Be Sitting By Them Selves , So After a Few Weeks We Were Able to Get Her To Loosen Up And Act Like The Baby She was, Being 3 Months and all.

Well I have Many More Storey But I think You get My Drift!. Its Just I See These Kids Lives Get Torn A Part Because of Teen Pregnancy's.

Well I'm Out, Just Got Home From Daycare And I'm Gonna Go Rest Up For Friday Cause I Have The Daycare ALL To My Self!, Julie Clare Has Been Getting the Kids Ready That's Why I was There Today .
So The Big Task Of Being The Only One Running A Daycare For a Full Day 7:30AM - 6:00Pm. It Is Fun Though, When I'm By myself Running someone Else's daycare I Run It How I like In an Orderly Fashion. I Don't Like anything Half Asked!. Last Year I had the Day Care For Two Weeks, The House was Super Clean You Could Eat Off The Floors,Walls, And Anything Else, I Like Stuff to be Cleaned (But Not Like Its Not Clean Now,She Runs Stuff pretty good & Has been doing so For MANY years). It was a Pretty Good Job And I cant wait Until I get My own daycare. I Plan My Day Around The Kids Who Are Coming And who Are Leaving, Who I have to Pick Up And Drop Off At School.
One Time I Had to go pick up 3 Kids from Preschool And I had 4 Kids With Me, We Walked of course ,I Pushed a Stroller and Pulled a Wagon!. It was all Good And it Worked well. Yet It Seems Baby Sitting with someone is Harder Then Baby Sitting by Your Self!. But MAN Do I love Baby Sitting!.
Well I'm Out Lol I think I said That back There But I Got Side Tracked as You Have Noticed!. I'm Gonna Go Talk to my Boyfriend!!.

WOw WOuld You Believe This!

Hey Would Anyone Who Knows Me Think I'd Have a Blog
Kay So I Might Not Post In here Much Cause I'm Not one to Express my Self To Other People ,But This Is How I Work My personality Is Gonna Come Out Through Song! No I don't Write The Songs! Or The Quotes I may Write down!.

SO to Start This Thinger-MA- Jig! I'm Gonna Quote Something!.
Right Now In My Life This Is How I feel Finally After YEARS and Years Of Nonsense.

Ella Fitzgerald-At last my love has come along
At last my love has come along My lonely days are over And life is like a song At last the skies above are blue And my heart was wrapped up in clover The night I looked at you I found a dream that I can speak to A dream that I could call my own I found a thrill to press my cheek to thrill that I have never known You smiled, and then the spell was cast And here we are in heaven And you are mine at last So This Is The Song That's Been Singing In My Head For The Past Few Months. If You Know Me at All Then You'll Know Why, And If You Know My Past You will For sure Know what This is all About Haha

>>-Kiwi-> <3