Cold out side

So its August 10th , Its been very hot up until now. Today has been a nice change and I pitty the people who work as I am working right now, Lol Im baby sitting, The yungest is sleeping very nice and Hopfully long the other two have been watching Movies,eating and playing quietly. Snowballs sleeping next to me as I am writing this, Chase is sleeping as is Chip. This is one of those days you wish you had off so you could wake up late or normal time, It changes alot of things when you can just laz around. Wake up go down stairs Turn on the Tube with a few good movies, Eat,Drink (Hot chocolate,Pepsi ect)Make smores with a roaring fire next or in the same room as you,Your pets laying beside you and really just relaxe while the world goes down the drain.
It feels like a winter day. Except your not up at the lake with an amazing view, The icy bite as you walk out side to colect your wood and take a huge breath in of that icy smoky smell of everyones or just your fire going. The smell of pine anf wood burning is Ideal for a lazy day. Or it makes you think of smoking meat, A Nice Sasuge smoking on the grill and You get dinner ready. Baking and sewing also comes along with this kind of day. You fill the house of baking and your fire place going. You walk out side and again you have that Icy,Piney ,firey Smell. The thought of it is just so beath taking and makes me wish I was up their with either with someone or by my self. Working on something I have on my list of stuff to get done.Or just the thought of doing nothing sounds pretty damn good at this moment.
I think all of this came about is when I started getting Christmas stuff together for my business website. I am more festive this year and have started planning, I am excited and wanting to be able to sew my toys for november. My busyest time of year is now to January. The getting ready for sales while getting raedy for Christmas it all comes together at the end but sometimes you wish you would have put more in to it. I love Christmas and the thought of spending money on people. I love spending money Its Fun to see something and think of that person it should go to. Its great and that fact that You can Spend tons of money and No one can tell you how much your going through . LOl .
Oh I am looking forword to the end of this (Kids being at my house) And just getting back to my life.Sewing, Taking inventory, Coming up with fun things to create and thinking of the fun kids can have with them is Joyus and A Great feeling. I cant wait. Except this year unlike others I have a Job other then My Business, I will be working with Karalees Mom (Shelly) And for those of you who dont know who Karalee is, She is my brothers Girlfriend her Mom is Shelly. But Thats Tuesday to Thursday I gave myself a 4 Day weekend every week so I can still get my Toys made for November. And so I still can have my creativity side of my brain to think of toys to come up with every few weeks. This way I will not be a total wreck.
Man The Girls have been watching Christmas Movies, Searching for Christmas Ideas And the Chilly Feel out side has made me Excieted for Christmas .I have eve started to shop, I maybe early to start but that doesnt mean I will have it all done a few months a head of time. Shopping for people takes time and you must buy it when you see it or else You will miss out, Always save recipes cause you never know when You might find something way better that fits that person.Ive learnt that over the years . I find if I lose the Recipe Then I have to keep it for my self and you find your self with more gifts for your self then you bought for your friends. LOl.

Well I should get back to work. I really dont have much to do. As I have been writing this me & the girls cleaned up and still watching the Smirfs. They wanted something They havent seen before well what is better then the old Kid shows I used to watch when I was little, Kinda makes me feel old when they havnt seen the smirfs before. But it keeps them busy and That I am Happy about. That and Sleeping bUt I hear the Small one Crying so I better Go. Tootles!.

Its been a LONG TIME!

WOW Its been awhile. Whats new in my life?. Well Im now 20! and ive spent my summer baby sitting , I have had up to 5 kids in my house at once and managed to take them all to the park a few times!. Iv always wanted a daycare well this summer I got my Prayer answered By having to the two daycares I work at call me up to ask it I would take a Few of there Kids.
Plus Ami & Colson.
So Far Ive gone through alot of crying! Four teeth Paige has had ,plus learned how to walk and talk ,KInda in sentancesToday I got one kid who was all for my house and then the next (He's only been here one day and he was sick) Came crying ,I finally just got him to stop but man he's as loud as Paige when you try and change her Diaper when she is over tired!.
What a change Yesturday he was So excited and today he doesnt want to be here. REally I dont have the toys for him cause there either Baby toys or girls toys. But Emma will be here tomorrow and they are from the same daycare so thats good. Maybe he will want to come, I hope so anyways!.
He's such a cutie!.
They all Are!. Paige Age 1, Emma Age 5 (Sisters with Paige, Sabastian Age 4, And then Ava whom is 3 Years old. Then Ami And Colson who I had last week and Im not taking them again cause My Dad only alowed me to have 2 but then Ava is only 3 days a week so he said I could have 3 which turned out to be 5 for a week and then turned in to 4 for two weeks then its 3 for only one week.
Its all Good I love kids and Have always wanted a daycare , But I wont a Building for it. I dont like having all these toys in my living room, 1 Theres not enough space for them all, 2 they distory things that arnt mine or they wreck the toys,3 They make such a mess and I cant stand that, I like clean 5 times a day or more then when they leave I vacumm,Wash floors, Wash dishes, Get eveything ready for the next day (Diaper bags,Food, Snacks...)
In Fall I start at SHelly's Daycare SO Im gonna be working with My Brothers girlfriends Mom. Its cool we get along well. Im a very blunt person and She is Just a little bit less blunt as I am. So Its good.
I Miss Dakota, Ive baby sat him at Shelly's twice by my self and a few other times with Shelly. HE's a cutie! and Is crazy,Out going all in all a total Clown a VERY Entertaining one.
But I do say one thing BABY sitting is a Cure for wanting a Kid. Of Corse your kids are going to be how you raise them so If you raise like spoiled brats then thats what you have to seal with HAHAHAHA! Sucks to be you. But If you raise them to be good kids even with having every toy there is then RIGHT ON FOR YOU!, its not a hard thing to do.
But Sending your teen daught out to baby sit a few spoiled childeren THAT in it self will cure her. SHe could be so good with kids and have a total tolrence for them and still get annoyed and sick of them.
Last year I spent the summer baby sitting a 9 Yr Old & A 6 Yr Old. It was cool when you were at the park and they didnt bother you but when you got home and tried to feed them . HOLY!.
There was fighting all day long. The 9 Yr Old foght me to go to the park and go home, His parents rules about the computer and tv, And There FOOD!. I even go hit on my arm and My Arm swelled up, You could see his hand print in my skin. I so Grounded him and wouldnt let him leave his room until an hour before his parents got home. I didnt tell them even though I sould have but it wasnt a big deal and Ive known him since he was 3. So what ever.


Well Ive kinds gotten off topic here .
Nothings really happend this month. Just My Birthday,Baby sitting, And Hanging out with the group. Well its not the same group we started out with, It Started with Me ,Kyle & Dustin that since I was 4,Dustin 3 & Kyle 2. Then we added Becky when we were in our tweens. Then Added Tim in 2004 who added Tiffany & Stacey then Lisa, And Add Everyones Boyfriends and Girl friends. Now Its Tiffany, Kyle & Karalee, Me and Jason , Dustin & Jessica. Tim is Still in our group sometimes same with Lisa but they are working and busy with other stuff. And with Stacey well I havent seen her since she ask if I wanted to go to my Ex & His Girlfriends Baby Shower for Their new daught. RETARTED If there should be anyone that should not have a baby it should THEM!. Thier Kids not even that cute.
Its funny how that want anyways.
This is a stupid and fucked up story.

Okay. She was 14 and he was 17 They were dating & Apparently thy got pragnant but then she fell down the stairs and lost it, Then they broke up. He dated some one else with the same name as his ex Girlfriend. Then Broke up with her after a few years of them chating on eachother and gettin back together he dated me for 3 months and then I broke up with him on our anniversary (He celebraited every month :|) So I crushed his heart and he didnt get over me until his baby came this year. I bet still if I went over to him and said I miss you he would come back Thats how stupied he is!. But After me a month later he got back together with his first ex at the begining ,Im sure thats not his first girlfriend Its just what I know.
He got back together with her and he cheated on her a few times and they bok up and got back togeher then on one of their brake ups she told him she was pragnant HAHA At that time he was with some slut and was sleeping with her!. so FUCKED UP!. I mean really!.
Anyways there has been a few diferent story's and iv gotten off topice, BUT ITS my crazy messed up blog so what ever!.

Well Im out for now!.

Sunday New Years Eve - The Break Up & New Beginings

Sunday morning new years eve.

Jacoba Woke up at 5:30 to work out then get ready for church.
7:35 I comes down stairs and before I run out the door I stop to feed my animals then heads in to town. Im way to early
for whorship practice so I think I'll stop in at my boyfriend Ryans place to
wake him up and maybe he'll discide to come to church for once.
Tyler is out side letting the dog "Nutsy" out when
I pull up in My Black 2005 Dodge 3500 I get out and say hi then I
walk in to the house and to Ryans room pick up the sheets And blanket lifts then up then lets them fall back
down giving him a nice chill to his shirtless back. He jumps up and gives Me
this *What do you think your doing* kind of look! I just stand there and
smile while saying Goodmorning Sweety! In My perky morning voice. Ry then grab his sheets and Blanket Closes his eyes and trys
to sleep .
NO! GET UP I Sherik. Your coming to church with me.
Ryan Gives me this flat out NO!.
I just stands there with this *I'm getting annoyed and I won't stand for
this very long* look on My face.
Ry then looks at Me and sees that I'm serious and getting ticked off.
You know I'm not the "Church going type!" Ryan tells Me.
I say I know!, you've told me many times! but you KNOW how I feel
about it. And you don't seem to care at all!.
WILL YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL! NOW LAY OFF!! Screams Ryan.
FINE THEN! I really can't see the point of staying with you as you dont seem to care about my beliefs or what you made a comitment to when we first started this relastionship! WERE OVER! I scream at him.
I turn around and walk out as I slam his bedroom door.
Ty asks is everything alright. I Said Its Really Great! (In My Cheery Tone), Give him a Hug .Climb in to my truck & blast Karosine by Amanda
Lambert as I drive over to Collens house Who is Like a Bother to me Hes my best friend .I told him everything and just let it all out. I've been needing to
break up with Ryan for afew weeks but couldn't do it and this was just one of
those things you can't over look for to long . Its now 8:30 ,Collen says we need to get you to church for whorship Practice . Collen takes my purse and looks for my keys gives me back the pruse and says I'm driving,We need to stop some place before church.
He pulls in to the drive through at Timdys for an Ice Cap ,Coffe & a dozen
donuts.
Collen Cheers me up in his special Brotherly way that he has, then looks at me and tells me I need to fix my face!.
Oh Thats nice Collen ,Thanks!.
Haha No Problom. But seriously You do! then he pulls down my sunvisor and opens then mirror.
I Look in the Miorror,Theres makup running down my face and I look like i just got Punched out.I Start Re-Applying my makup as we are turnning in the to church parking lot.Before we get out Collen looks at me then stuffs a powder cherry filled donut in my mouth .I chew it fast then I Ask can I now have my keys back?.
Nope you cant! I'm driving us to luch after then were going to Grandmas and Grandpas (They are my Grandma and Grandpa But Collens been around us for so long he thinks of them as his own).We then walk in ,him with his Coffee( Blah!) and I with my ice Cap.Practice is at 10:00 and service starts
at 11:00. After church we get in to the truck & I turn on my Cell ,No
texts, No voice mail ,Nothing!. Collen then grabs the cell out of my hands and puts it in his pocket .I Look at him then say Why did you take my Cell?.
because You dont need it and If it happends that you do I'll answer it and Let you use it ,then he stuffs another donut in my face. As I try and eat it fast so I can talk. Then I scream STOP DOING THAT!.
He Just looks at me and Laughs as he eats one.
We Then pull out of the church parking lot, and we header to Mcy d's for lunch .After Lunch we go over to the club to get set up for our new years eve party.
The rest of the band shows up & helps with setting things up & putting up
decorations . We go over the whole night with eachother, Like when the band is suposed to be up there and which bands go up at what time,When there is Karaoke and so forth.
4:00
Collen and I head to Grandma & Grandpa Andersons house for the family sunday
supper.
The Party starts at 9:00 so we stayed at Grandma and Grandpas till 7:00,They live about 45 minutes out of town. We Arive at Jays Night Club on 8th at 7:55. Jay Closes the bar to the public for Special events like this.Jay's Body gaurds are at all the doors, Only People on the list are allowed in ,150 of our closest friends are coming and on that list. Most everyone who helped plan this thing are there already The bands set up and sitting at the bar.I brought My Fiddle & My Guitar and place them behind the stage wall.Then I go to the bar,As The first 50 people walk in Im Standing behind the bar making a drink ,after an hour of being there the place has filled up And there are a load of boxs and Bottles by the bar,Everyone who was invited had to bring drinks of some sort and or something to eat ,like chips or what ever, I Brought Tons of appitizers I made ahead of time. It is now time for me to go up there and get it started as I walk up to the stage and look over all the poeple to see whos come I see Ryan and Tyler standing there looking at me while the're talking to Kevin And Trista, And There is This one Guy Standing there with Devin,I dont know who he is but He's Cute and He's Smiling AT me!. I start speaking while the band is gettin ready behind me.Hey Ya'll ,Hows it going everyone? Excited to get this night started? I say to the crowd as I'm trying not to let Ryan bother me But Stareing at the Tall Dark Cutie In The Middle of the room. The Whole Crowd starts cheering, Okay everyone this is the plan for tonight to kick it off is MiddleTin,then we got Karaoke for two hours, After that we got the Hick town girls And Then us the Hick Town Girls Count it down to New Years!. Theres Drinks on the right! And Food on the Back wall. Ya'll have Fun ALRIGHT!.My Band Middle-Tin Starts it off As I sing The Cutie moves to the front with Devin.He stares right in to the eyes and smiles.Its this amazing look that Hits you hard in the heart,It feels Great with this tingle. After an hour we Finish off playing and we get the stage ready for karaoke. I walked to the bar to see Danielle & Dan (They have been going out since me and Collen first brought them together when we were 16,They are now engaged as of last week on the 25th)Devin and The Cutie Move to the back of the room by Danie and Dan Where I was now. Danie Gives me a Big hug then hands me Martini and asks so have you seen him here yet.
Yep sure have. He was like one of the first 50 to walk through the door.But I see Someone else who is in my eyes view,He's looking at us right now.She turns and looks to the spot where I am stareing at.
Yeah he's right over there with Tyler walking this way Dan tells us.
Collen comes up from behind me and Lifts me on to his shoulders and says your gonna sing a song with me ,Right as Devin and the Tall Dark Cutie are walking over to where I was ,but Im not there Im on my way to the front!
He places me on the stage and picks out the song, Its play somethin country by Brooks and Dunn, Excepts its more like re written by Jacoba And Collen!.
Its good we made it a duet. Then Court,Britt,Danie and Alexa Run up on stage and we play Dont Cha by the Pussy Cat dolls again we changed it to country,I was the lead singer as I am in my bands . Everyone liked it ,even the ones that dont really like country!.The Tall Dark Cuite again at the front Wow He's HOT!.
We get off and The Girls grab me . we Go hide! Lol Okay not really but we kinda moved in a group around Ryan trying not to be seen, Success! Were through!, I stayed on the Stairs with the group until Hick Town Girls had to go up(Tonight I wasnt singing by my self I was with my bands)
.The Downside to this group move was I had to Sacrifice Not meeting this Tall Dark Cuite Upside is I wasnt any where near Ryan!.
Karaoke ends and we get back to the stage sang a few skaskatoon hits of ours then we counted down to new years.Then it was just the DJ Who played after that for the rest of the night.
Soon everyone left and so did we. We all have to meet back here tomorrow to clean up so Jay can have his Club Back in order and running.
I successfully passed Ryan the whole night. Except I got home and Had two Messages from him ,But Collen just earased them.
So I have no clue what he all said. Collen was sleeping in his old room down in the basment because he knew that Ryan would be coming over at some point and Ryan being drunk would have made it all worse.
7:00 Am I get out of bed and head downstairs to eat Skiping my work out but still feeling Really great!, I went out side to feed the animals then Came back inside to feed those ones,I Couldnt for the life of me get The Tall Dark Guy out of my head!. I would Ask Devin but I dont really know him since he has only been going to the church for a year and kinda sticks with his family. Collen got up at 2:00 ,Soon after Danie and Dan came over the guys went up stairs to the 3rd level where the reck room/Sports room is.(Im a Huge sports fan) Danie and I wentinto the Hot tub and had some girl talk which was the Tall Dark Dude at the Club who was with Devin that we both dont know. Afew days have went by and Only two E-mails, One Text and 5 Voice mails a Day later. And No Sign of the tall Dark Dude!. Friday coms and Ryan stops in by Collens work to talk to him about me. 3 Hours later Collen Stops in to eat before we go out with our friends,He Tells me everything Ryan Said and Sudggested I talk with him, As I had planned from the start but was waiting a bit for him to relize what was going on.
Saturday morning!.
I get out of bed at 5;30 Work out, Shower, Eat and then Go shopping But before shopping I stopped in at Ryans. Nice and Early so hes still in bed.
I pull up to his house Again Ty is out side with Nusty and Tells me to just walk in! My Pleasure in deed I walk in and to his room , Lift up the Blanket and Sheets to let them Float down again giving him that nice chill!(I love doing that) He Jumps up and looks at me then gives me a hug, I push him off and I tell him we need to talk this over!. He agrees and Puts on some pants.We talk it over as he sits on his bed and Me in his Computer chair. 30 minutes go by and we talked it over, Were all good now and I left. Fast and Easy is how I like it!. Finish Shopping and Lunch with My Mom ,Dad, 7 Year Old sister Bridgett,16 Year Old Brother Matt and sister Amy, Oldest Brother Jered,Wife Lexi, Kids Hannah-Leigh,Bryerlee & Sarah, Oldest Sister Mia ,Husband George, Twin Boys Colsen & Kody, 22 Year old Brother Dean And Wife Sam. I Go on with my day .Soon Its sunday and Guess whos there but the tall Dark Dude with Devin!.

I'm really kinda bad at hedging my bets
Straddling the fence just to get my feet wet
It's sorta like me to jump on in
To see if I sink or swim
So maybe I'm a fool for taking this fall
But it's all for you or nothing at all
Too late for a little in love
I'm all the way in

Ain't no kinda, sorta, maybe
When I'm holding you baby
Halfway ain't near enough
Every waking minute
Got my heart and soul in it
No I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

This is high wire walking
I don't need a net
Parachute jumping, ain't pulled the cored yet
No turning back now, I'm goin' all the way down

Ain't no kinda, sorta, maybe
When I'm holding you baby
Halfway ain't near enough
Every waking minute
Got my heart and soul in it
No I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

I might learn the hard way
That's the chance I take
Knowing there's no such thing
As a little heartache

Ain't no kinda, sorta, maybe
When I'm holding you baby
Halfway ain't near enough
Every waking minute
Got my heart and soul in it
No I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

No such thing as a little in love
I can't be just a little in love
No such thing as a little in love

People Not Knowing how to make up THEIR MINDS! & Hurtsing Others in the Process

Some People should Learn to make up their minds and stop sending the wrong messages!.
STOP PLAYING WITH PEOPLS HEARTS AND MAKE UP YOUR MINDS!.

I Want to ask you some questions and I want you to leave a comment with your Answer!.
If You Hard core firlt with someone does that mean you like them?
Does it mean you have a stronge enough feeling for them that you want to date, Go out with them as more then just "Friends" ?.
Or Calling them out of the blue for just the a random question that you know well but just want to hear their voice?.

What are your signs of you liking someone?
Is it Showing up at there house randomly?
Or showing up at a place where you know they are going to be.


Is It When your with them you like to sit REAL close and have play wars?
Is It looking at them in such a way that everyone in the room can see that you truly care for that person?.


Or is it flirting with them for a few years or months just for fun?.
ARe you just playing with their heart cause your bored and would like to have some fun.

Or Do You Send them confusing messages like , One day you discide to show up at there house and flirt constantly with them. Then the next day just act like nothing happened at all and that you dont feel like flirting with them as if they didnt matter as they did the day before. When The other person is so confused and not knowing what the Hell is going on!.


When you play with someones heart, Its really like your ripping it out.

Im Just so sick of of this!, Its a commen thing but it just hurts the one your playing with!.

Love is something you dont play with.
God doesnt play with your heart why would you play with anothers?.

Guys and Gals! Dont Play with someones heart It Hurts BAD!, Make sure you know what you want then let them know. That may Hurt them but not as much as it does if you left them in the dark,Confused and Missled Jumping from acting like you like them so much then acting like they couldnt be worth your time.

This is a story of a friends of mine:
Brook was starting a new church and didnt know anyone there , SO she got in the baby sittin in the nursary and ushering so she could meet people, Sunday school was just finishing so she thought she would join in the fall.
The frist time she walks in to the church there is this guy (Cohen) standing there with his friends, Now she didnt care eventhough he was cute she just didnt care about him and just ignored him.
Every sunday for months he would just watch her!.
Then fall came and She was in the nursary before sunday school then Sunday school and church or having to usher.
Every sunday morning Cohen would come early to sunday school so he could walk past the nursary door and stare at Brook, She knew full well what he was trying to do and just ignored him, She didint even say hi to him!.
Then she would go to sunday school and he would sit straight across from her stareing. When Cohen was looking at her she looked in to his eyes and Saw that he was thinking hard like really hard.
This is the kind of guy that you can not read even if your life was on the line you could not read him! Even when you think you got him pinned to a point he turns around and does what you least expect!.
Sunday school let out and Today she had to usher Now she has been ushering all spring and summer and not once has she seen Cohen usher!, But she goes and puts her books under the table and starts to usher. She looks over to see her team mates and guess whos on the other door eh You guessed its Cohen!.
Every time she would glace over there to make sure she wasnt going to miss the team leaders orders, Well everytime Brook did that Cohen would look straight in to Brooks eyes and Smile this Smile that went straight through you and hit your heart. Well Brook just kept doing what she was doing cause Brook really had no likeings for Cohen.
Then Brook Fell for Cohen but took it slow, She started to flirt back and talking to him on msn and all that stuff then one night at youth she was really sick but went anyways cause Cohen had asked her to come (Cohen had started to e-mail Brook everyday after school and right before school so she woke up to an e-mail every morning) She hid her sickness and went on ,The night started with Cohen and Brook just hanging out with the group and then while making the commercials Cohen took Brooks hand and was flirting with her and she back cause she thought she could, She thought that it was okay and that Cohen really liked her. The Night went on like that and when it came to watching them ,Brook just wanted to stand cause she wasnt feeling well ,Cohen agreed to just stand him unaware of her being sick, Then after awhile of standing they sat down on the gym floor behind everyone else who was wathing the commercials . Cohen put his arm and wrapped it around her waist and pulled her closer to him as they sit there they arnt playing any attion to the commercials at all, People walking by and looking at them in "Awe" at them, some even asking if they where going out lol.
They just replyed with a no.
They went on like that for a month only seeing each other at youth and church. She got him to join her in the christmas play they had to march . Brook got put at the beginings of the line and Cohen at the end as they practiced they would wink, Mouth words and just look in to each others eyes. (Brook thinks Cohen really likes her and that there is going to be somthng of this, This being her frist time falling in love with someone who tried so hard to get her) Then he was late one morning for sunday school and showed up in the nursary to see her, Red Eyes and looks like Crap! He Apoligised for being late and explained he was with a friend that her dad had a heartattack and she needed a ride, That he was with her until 2:am then slept through his alarm. Practice had been canciled that day Brook told him. And Cohen asked if it was ok if he went home and slept , She said yes do that but say hi to your dad frist (He had ben at his mothers all week and was going to sleep at his dads.His dad was at church that morning) He did and went home. Then E-mailed her after he woke up.

Over the week he had been kind of cold to her, she didnt know what she did but kept being nice. Then at youth friday he didnt show up and had a million excuses. It kind of made her mad cause they were diferent every time she talked to him.

Sunday the last practice until the play:
He came in late . Didnt even look at her and went on with the march, Everytime they passed eachother Cohen would give Brook this cold look. Brook ignored him and went on talking with her friends acting like he wasnt there.

The day of the play:
Cohen's late I mean REAL late Its about to start and hes not here, They get someone else to take his place. Finally Cohen comes and then talks to the leader and then leaves!.
Brook gets home after it and asks Cohen why he was not in the play Cohen said they found someone else so I said good im going to work.
And that was that.

Cohen went on like this for two years of youth and church! Then Grad came and he stopped going to church and youth.
He got super busy with his work or as there was many jobs he worked at through the day it got so bad it was 4 - 5 diferent jobs a week all working then one after another. He didnt have time to do anything except work!.
They talked online here and there not much really and when she started talking to him it sounded forced, So she stopped making conversation and would let him start it. Brook went on with her life and got a boyfriend.One day Cohen saw her picture on msn and Freaked out 'WHOS That?' He asked The only time he would talk to her)
She said Oh him he's my boyfriend.
Cohen never said a word back and logged off.
Then Randomly showed up at her house and talking with her brother making plans with him to do stuff. He never kept them , except a few times of him needing something or being in one of her brothers car videos.
Cohen Showed up at her house after following her brother home from youth, He stood out side talking to her brother and was just stareing at the house. Brook saw him pull up and thought she would go out, She hasnt seen him in a LONG time and she was happily dating someone, She thought it was safe so she waited 10 minutes and then went out side to say hi!, She walked out side and Cohen looked at her in that way that you think he can just see in to your heart and find that one little piece that is deep down inside of her of the love she onces had and was still a little there.
All eyes on her , Her brother wasnt even getting heard Cohen would just talk to her , Her brother excused him self and was going in to eat. Brook said well I should go in and eat as well, See yeah and truned around to walk back up her drive way. Cohen Stopped her by saying "What, Thats it?".
Brook Asked him well what do you want?.
Cohen said I dont know?
Brook walks up to him and Puts out her hand to shake his hand.
Cohen takes her had and Gives her this Big Hug.
Then they say good bye and they leave.

Brook & her Boyfriend Brokeup a month after of them agreeing it just wasnt working out and that it was mutual. Finds out a month later after talking to her ex he had a girlfriend and has had her for a month and a half, That over lapped her!.
She went on with her life and all.
Having to put up with Cohen going back and forth!.

A few months later its easter and Cohen shows up at youth and stays for a coupld of hours hanging out with Brook and her brother. Then says well I gotta go to work now ttyl, Stands there looking at Brook then says it again and stands there for a few minutes then discides to leave. he does and everyone tells Brook to get out side he was looking for a hug lol. Brook walks out side and starts talking to him and all , She opened her arms to him and he gets this big grin on his face and runs up and hugs her BIG, Says well Happy Easter if I dont get to see you again. gets in his car and drives away with abig grin on his face.

After a week from easter he logs on to msn. Doesnt talk to her so she thought she would and Finally She Went up and Asked Him. Is there ever going to be a you and me ?.
Cohen: umm...I dont know, Maybe who know.I gotta go to ball. We well finish this later.
After three weeks he loggs back on.
Brook: Brings up his Box and asks "Are you ready to finish this conversation?"
Cohen:Umm Okay.
Brook: Okay Im gonna ask you once more what do you think of us and will there ever be a you and me together?.Im Sick of sitting here being played with.
Cohen: Maybe, I dont know But I have a girlfriend!.
Cohen: I have to go bye.
Brook: ...

Brook felt like she was going to die , Her Heart had just been ripped out and kicked around for the past 4ish years!.

A Year Later she meets a guy and dates him for 7 months still kind of thinking of Cohen through out the dateing.
Brook brakes up with her boyfriend ,cause they just dont go well together and that they are just to diferent people and Discides shes not going to think of Cohen Anymore and that he is just GONE!(Gone like a fraight train). Then Cohen Randomly calls Brook and asks when youth starts she tells him and he shows up at youth. Brook said hi and then ignored him the 3 hours he was there.
Meets a Great guy, Falls in love and Thats the end of Cohen!.

Like the song says from Adem Gregory - Dont send the invitation if you dont want to party!.

MY Opinion! On what I think is RighT! :

God Gave us the bible to Read and Teach from. I find these days That there is a Shortage of the teaching from the REAL BIBLE Going on here , Ever since this one book came out it seems lke the churches now are only teaching on that. I Mean God Asked his Desiples Will I find Faith on this earth when I Return. I ask You this WIll there be FAith of GOD Or will there be the FAith of another?. Lets Make This a Stand for God ,Lets SPeak the Word of God from the Bible and Not of another!!!.

Valintines Day Romance

Hi I'm Crissa and this is my Valentines day story.

Morning February 14th 6:00am.
I wake up for my morning work out,Get out of bed with a jump my 3 big dogs, 7 tiny dogs and 6 cats follow me up the stairs to the Gym to work out for an hour.
7:00 I get to my room to take a shower, 20 minutes later I get out of the bathroom and walk over to my bed to get dressed. And On my bed was a Box of chocolates , A Big Box,A Small Box and a Card. I Open the card to read it and it says that he will pick me up at 8:00pm on the dot. (WHOS He? I Know no one that Has a Crush on me)
Next I open the Big Box and pull out a Beautiful Red backless dress, then I open the Small box and SHOES! Red ones that go Great with the dress!. I do say this guy has some taste, I put on the dress ,It fits perfectly!.
Wow I'm SO in shock I call my best friend Chris to tell him all about my morning! even though its only been a few hours its been pretty good.
He Starts joking with me and then says he has to get back to work, I say Bye and we both hang up.
I Start jumping around the room and almost faint Oh Need some sugar!.
Me and my dogs race down the stairs.
I stop in my tracks to find the whole entrance full of red, Pink & White Roses every where! wow I have never seen this many roses in one place before!.
I Really wonder who this could be, someone who knows my size and my colors.
I sit on the stairs just taking in this morning smelling all the roses its just a great smell that fills my house.
30 minutes later I go to the kitchen to eat and get ready for 9:30 when I have to teach Mommy and me Exercises with my Nieces and Nephew.

8:00 comes and the door opens and then Brooklyn come running in screaming Auntie Crissa, My Sister in law follows her in side carrying Jaycobe & Grace in their car seats with the HUGE Diaper bag, She stops and Looks around the room at all the roses. She says WOW Who'd you get all these from.
I don't know I just came down stairs to find them all, I also got a dress, Chocolates ands shoes with a card that told me when he was picking me up!.
Wow he sure knows a way to your heart ,Clothes, Chocolates and Flowers I'm impressed!.
This has to be someone you know eh?, Marissa says.
Yeah I have no clue The had writing I haven't seen before .
Well I have to get to work now, Hope you find out who he is.Bye, Marissa says.
Well It will be a big surprise for me .
Bye.

Okay Guys its ready to go to! I put them all in their car seats, the Pack'N'Plays so they will stay out of our ways.
Finish loading up the truck.
Half an hour later we get to there ,Its now 9:00.
Get In and set everything up.


Its now 1:00 where done at the gym and just left McDonald's. Heading home for nap time.At 3:00 where all going to the skate park at my church to talk with My best friend Danielle who works there today.

Danielle was Surprised and totally excited even though she secretly knows everything that's going on!.
5:00 now and the Joshua my Oldest brother picks up the kids from the skate park. I leave for home cause I need to get ready and all that.

I'm all ready and have been waiting for the last 30 minutes nervous as heck trying to read and keep my mind off of who it could be.
8:00 Ding Dong! the Door bell rings only once.
I open the door and My jaw opens in shock Theres a Cutie with curly blonde hair and blue eyes ,Really White Sparkly Teeth and a The BIGGEST Smile ever styling in the Black suit I made him for my grad 2 years ago with a new red tie .
I Yell CHRISTOPHER? What are you doing here?.(Chris has been my Best est friend for the past 10 years)
He stands there holding the cutest Beagle puppy dresses in a pink sweater with a Big red heart on it that says "Hug me" wrapped in a pink blanket and hands her to me.
My mouth still open I let out a Huge AWE! THANKS As I start to yell in Joy yet I'm really confused.
He says in a chuckle Ha Your Welcome.
And takes my jacket to help me put it on, Asks if I'm ready.
I nod yes as I'm still in shock,Oh!IshouldPutHerinaCagefornowIsshehousetrained? I ask him all in one small breath.
HA HA Yeppers She is ,He says with a huge grin.
Okay then lets go! He says.
He opens his truck door and helps me in ,Closes the door after me , goes around to his door and climbs in. I turn to him and ask where are we going?.
He doesn't answer me for at least 5 minutes and then says you'll-See and kind of sings it.
He Turns on the Cd player which has the CD I made for him from summer 2002 I went away for a month to Julliard, It was all of our favorite country songs.
We listen to it all the time but for some reason it just felt different this time, Maybe its because I was still in shock and wondering WHY he would do this for me.
I have had a crush on him since I first met him at youth.

We pull in the the parking lot of McDonald's (My Favorite Place in the world and could live there and never get sick of it!).
He says stay here and walks around to my door to let me out, We walk in to McDonald's and he tells me to get the condiments and to sit at that table , He points to a square table by the window. Okay I say .
He goes to order and comes back with A Quarter ponder meal super sized , A Big Extra meal super sized , Two Mcflurrys and Two Cherry Pies.
Wow You think you got enough food here!.
He Chuckles and says Oh Just eat okay, We have some place to go in two hours.
What Theres more? Where are we going?, I ask him.
Oh-You'll-See!. Theres the Singing again. (Chris doesn't Sing his words ever and Will only sing when the music is loud)

I look at him with a what are you planning kind of look. He just grins and keeps eating.
We both finish the load of food!.
He takes my hand and says. I Like you ,I really REALLy Like You and I have ever since you first walked in to my youth group and totally whipped my butt at basketball with a broken leg!, I don't know why we haven't ever dated before even though we hang out all the time and went to each others grads And have done so much together, I Think Its Its ITS. He stops ... ... .... .........
He Goes and reaches in his pocket and Bends down on one knee.
Before he says anything I say,CHRISwhatareyourdoing?.
He Keeps going and opens the box, Theres a Huge Diamond ring and holds it up to me and says I think its time I took action and discided on what I want to do and this I am Very Convinced, Will You marry me he Blurts out!.
Umm... I have this Puzzled look on my face and then say Wow I mean YESIWILL!.
By That Time the whole McDonald's where standing there watching us and Cheering!.
He Puts the ring on my finger and Gives me this Big Hug and its the kind that makes you weak in the knees, Thank Goodness I was sitting!.
He Tells me ,Oh I am so Glad! I was having Coffee with your dad the other day and I asked him And He told me it was about time I finally made a move.
I Grin Tears running down my face.
He hands me a Napkin.

Suddenly he jumps up! Okay Lets go!.
Helps me with my coat,The Door and Puts me in the truck, Shuts the door and runs to the other side and Jumps in. ( I mean REALLY jumps in)
I ask OKAYwherearewegoingnow?.
Nope Not a Word ,I'm Not telling! He says Keeping the biggest grin I have ever seen on his face.

Ten Minutes later we get to a hotel!.
I ask Him WHAT are we doing HERE?!?!.
He says -You'll-See-
He Opens the door and takes my hand, Leads me in to the hotel and to the ballroom. He knocks on the door twice, Then Opens it after 4 minutes. We walk in and the room is dark he leads me in to the middle of the ballroom and the lights go on!.
Bam all at once there comes a roar to the room, All around us are family and friends!.
We walk to the stage where my band is.
Chris Announces SHE SAID YES!.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO The Whole Room Roars!.
I Go to hug my parents,Brothers and Sisters,Grandparents ,Friends & My To be In laws.
WOW.

He Drops me off.Tells me That I'm An Amazing women and That he loves me SO MUCH!.
Kisses & Hugs me.Opens the door and says Have a Wonderful night Sweetie.
I Tell Him Goodnight and I love him too.
He shuts the door.
Jumps in to his truck the happiest man and drives away.
Its now 2:00am And I'm at home. So tired yet I'm jumping like a Mexican jumping bean.
I go and get my new puppy out of the BIG Cage that is for my German Shepperd.
Up Stairs and I Craw in to bed just trying to think of all that happened tonight, Pinching my self and wondering if this is just all a dreams.(That would be Mean)
But then I look at my finger and there is this Huge Rock! I Turn on my Cd Player and it plays the first CD that's in there ,ITS Me and Chrises Cd!. The one we grew up listening together , Its Gone through alot!.

Teen Parents!

I'm just so disgusted of this world!.I mean I go to church and all I see are single Teen Parents & Divorced parents! Those poor Kids having to pend their days in day cares!.
The thing that gets me is I was brought up in a time where it was uncommon & seen as WRONG!.& now its acceptable to be a single teen parent! They Are Actually PROUD of The Fact That they are a single teen parents.Even though they dint know ho to take care of it!.
Sex is such a huge thing like it always has been but was rarely heard of,it was a thing you just don't talk about & if your teen Daughter was pregnant then you didn't let her out of the house!.I see the grandparents taking care of there Kids Kids some of which didn't raise their own Kids & its along line of Teen girls in their family who haven't raised their own kids but raised their Grand kids I'm just so sick of it!.
Theres all these kids in foster care whom their parents don't want them yet don't have the brains to say hey I can't & don't want to take care of them why don't I put them up for adoption right away!.
My grandma has a boy (Shes a foster parent) This kid has FAS or now known as FAP he also is Autistic (?I think I spelt that wrong) the doctors haven't said yet but he has all the symptoms of Autism
He has been with us since he was 10 months old & now is gonna be 7 years in July!.He has two brothers Madason age 10 & Matthew age 2 1/2.We had Matthew at 3 Days old & he went to live with his Aunt at 4 Months.
Mackenzie And Madison Are Still In Foster Care.

We Got this Baby Girl At 3 Months Old, And He Mother had just turned 15 At The Time. Pamala Had Already Been Taken Away At 1 1/2 Months.
We Had Julie Over At The House So She Could See And Play With Pamala!. We Watched Her as She Played With Pamala, But She Played Like she was a Little Girl Playing House with Her Doll. She Would Put The Baby To Sleep, A Few Minutes Later She Took her Out Of Bed And Put her In The Swing, Then She Took Her out A few Minutes Later And Took her For a Walk. So Every Few Minutes She Would Put Pam In a Different Thing , Change Her Clothes Every Few Minutes.
It was Nuts!. When We First Got Pam She Was Trying to Sit Already Well At 3 Months Babies Bones Are Not Hard enough to Be Sitting By Them Selves , So After a Few Weeks We Were Able to Get Her To Loosen Up And Act Like The Baby She was, Being 3 Months and all.

Well I have Many More Storey But I think You get My Drift!. Its Just I See These Kids Lives Get Torn A Part Because of Teen Pregnancy's.

Well I'm Out, Just Got Home From Daycare And I'm Gonna Go Rest Up For Friday Cause I Have The Daycare ALL To My Self!, Julie Clare Has Been Getting the Kids Ready That's Why I was There Today .
So The Big Task Of Being The Only One Running A Daycare For a Full Day 7:30AM - 6:00Pm. It Is Fun Though, When I'm By myself Running someone Else's daycare I Run It How I like In an Orderly Fashion. I Don't Like anything Half Asked!. Last Year I had the Day Care For Two Weeks, The House was Super Clean You Could Eat Off The Floors,Walls, And Anything Else, I Like Stuff to be Cleaned (But Not Like Its Not Clean Now,She Runs Stuff pretty good & Has been doing so For MANY years). It was a Pretty Good Job And I cant wait Until I get My own daycare. I Plan My Day Around The Kids Who Are Coming And who Are Leaving, Who I have to Pick Up And Drop Off At School.
One Time I Had to go pick up 3 Kids from Preschool And I had 4 Kids With Me, We Walked of course ,I Pushed a Stroller and Pulled a Wagon!. It was all Good And it Worked well. Yet It Seems Baby Sitting with someone is Harder Then Baby Sitting by Your Self!. But MAN Do I love Baby Sitting!.
Well I'm Out Lol I think I said That back There But I Got Side Tracked as You Have Noticed!. I'm Gonna Go Talk to my Boyfriend!!.

WOw WOuld You Believe This!

Hey Would Anyone Who Knows Me Think I'd Have a Blog
Kay So I Might Not Post In here Much Cause I'm Not one to Express my Self To Other People ,But This Is How I Work My personality Is Gonna Come Out Through Song! No I don't Write The Songs! Or The Quotes I may Write down!.

SO to Start This Thinger-MA- Jig! I'm Gonna Quote Something!.
Right Now In My Life This Is How I feel Finally After YEARS and Years Of Nonsense.

Ella Fitzgerald-At last my love has come along
At last my love has come along My lonely days are over And life is like a song At last the skies above are blue And my heart was wrapped up in clover The night I looked at you I found a dream that I can speak to A dream that I could call my own I found a thrill to press my cheek to thrill that I have never known You smiled, and then the spell was cast And here we are in heaven And you are mine at last So This Is The Song That's Been Singing In My Head For The Past Few Months. If You Know Me at All Then You'll Know Why, And If You Know My Past You will For sure Know what This is all About Haha

>>-Kiwi-> <3